I feel your pain. I know how much anxiety sucks. Hugs

Thanks...I wish it would stop... Nothing is making sense to me right now, and its making me very anxious. :(

I was just thinking the same thing! It really does stink!!

I am sorry you're having a rough night. Sometimes we put pressure on ourselves and have high expectations, especially on a holiday, so when it doesn't go so well it hurts a hundred times more than it should. (At least, I know that's what happens to me!) We are sensitive souls! Just remember this is just one day of the new year and if your night doesn't get better, then you will feel better tomorrow!

To be fair you probably lined yourself up for it stressing in advance. Thing is you have anxiety..its an illness a disorder and it has no repsect for what day of the year it is. You are ill, you are like this because you have a chemical imbalance in your brain and central nervous system and like i said its an illness. Just like if someone has lost a leg they wont grow another one just because it is christmas new year or a birthday. The more you see yourself as flawed because of it the worse your condition will get and the more foundated your anxiety will become until it becomes all encompasing. It becomes your world everything you do becomes anxiety and eventually you loose who you are and you "become" anxiety. When that happens there is no way back i am afraid and the only way forward is down. I have seen your posts before and I know how much you are suffering believe me. I would like to help you if i can but you need to extend a hand out to me or someone and ask for help. When you do you also need to accept their help learn from it and start to let go of you anxiety. I can tell you this for what its worth. When you sit up and take control of this situation and actually see what it is doing to you you can start to take control back. Eventually you will start to get good days and bad days. They wont all be good. Even someone who seems to have completely cured their anxiety can have relapses usually triggered by trauma. When you do have bad days its important that you dont let the bad days become anything more than that and just get on with it. Trust me if you let anxiety become your only freind that freind will stab you in the back time and time again.