Are you taking medicine or seeing a therapists? It does get better. Keep fighting, and don't be so hard on yourself, take a break, breathe.

We do not know anywhere enough about the brain or the mind. when I was about your age I was going through a crisis and would drive to my parents and cry to my mother up to the point that she offered if you cant handle it you can come and live here. this is a 40 year up grown man with a wife and three kids. I was a bit let down by the offer because I would have preferred for her to encourage me to push thru... but then I must have seen pretty desperate in her eyes. and she could empathize. thankfully in crisis meds psychiatrist and psychologists have always helped. There is hardly only one thing in this whole process. all the advice here is good, some just seems more helpful to some than others. one thing of my personality has helped me quite a bit. I have a real good dose of self esteem (was praised when growing up) but am still quite humble and know I am not the last Coke in the dessert. Which has always led me to believe that even if I have this sickness thrown upon me there is no way I am going to feel ashamed (I mean we definitely will not feel proud of it but if ashamed only a tiny wee little bit) and will recognize that I humbly accept this and try to give the best of me that I can given my condition and my situation. Nobody can ask more of themselves and of anyone. Do not give up, search, search. someone, something will help. do not feel ashamed. The wife, the husband, the children, coworkers, neighbors, unless they have experienced it, will not fully understand you. But I have seen in this site that the people that have suffered it for years do know. And we stand by you. Flourish.

I recently learned that channeling that anxiety energy- perhaps into a healthy form of adrenaline- is really helpful (dancing ,working out, anything which takes you out of your mind and into your body) secondly- most of our 'anxiety' is emotion related from the right side of our brain- so we need to circuit the blood flow to the left, we can do this by puzzles, adult coloring books (I recently started balancing sticks in different formations- idk what its called but I seen it in a foreign movie) I have an acute anxiety disorder where I cant even work or stand within a foot of a person sometimes- at least once a week, I wish I would just not wake up- as though that would make it easier on the world or my family- but I remind myself this moment is just a chapter in the book of my life, it is not my life. I was once a very high functioning individual, until certain things brought me to my knees. But I will never give up, I will always get up, it may hurt, I may stumble, I may sit there for a minute to catch my breath, but in the end- this will not be my end.