Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
I have not been been on this for a while now. But I wanted to say that with everything going on I have been getting a lot of anxiety. I am still i school and I am taking summer classes to graduate early. I have to start an internship next week but I am extremely nervous about it because it is with older people. I get scared with older men because of things that have happened in the past for me. i could tell my advisor to place me somewhere else but i think it is a little to late for that. I am also seeing this guy, started about a month ago so it is still new. He is a kind and patient since i have a lot of anxiety being around people. Like we usually just sit in the car and talk but the last 2 times i seen him we went to the movies and the first time we saw a movie i had a panic attack. I didn't tell him i was taking a panic attack at all but when we sat down he saw me fidget a lot. He told me if i wanted to leave we could and go somewhere else but i said no because he paid. We ended up staying and i calmed myself down after a while, i felt bad and i didnt want to talk to him anymore because i felt like their is something wrong with me.
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I put in a post about giving my sister-in-law some kitchen towels for Thanksgiving and Christmas and how I have a thing for kitchen towels. I also have a thing for baskets and socks! What do you have a thing for?
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I was abused as a young person, and help and understanding wasn't something I had available or knew where to find. I was anxious most of the time and thought things might somehow be worse if I looked for help.
Please talk with your school social worker or counselor and see if they can help you talk about your options for a more comfortable placement in summer school, and assisting you in getting a placement change.
Not knowing you or your past experiences, but having worked for many years to have a healthier life after a bit of a rough start, I hope you will also talk to your social worker or counselor at school about how things are going with your personal relationship(s). Why ask you to share this with a counselor when you are already busy, and stressed with older people? My past experiences for a long period sort of led me into more unhealthy relationships because I was too uncomfortable to break off relationships when I had deep (and correct) feelings that something wasn't quite right or safe.
With your past trauma experience, and being fast-tracking academically you are likely to have a good bit of your youth being in school or work with people older than you. The good news is that you are motivated and bright, and good counselors can steer you to ways to manage your anxiety, and insights to help you use your intuition to stay safe where there is really something you need to be wary of in another person rather than just something you need to find a way to relax into.
Wishing you all the best, and hoping that you will connect with your school advisor or counselor, or both to get some expert support. You are worth taking this good care of yourself, so go get that bit of help you need. Life is a pretty complicated assignment, no? You can do this.
there IS something wrong with you, autumn. you are human and hard-wired to have problems and imperfections. that natural fact isn't so horrible when i let it be okay enough to be open and honest about it. solutions are far easier to find with open honesty than with the deception of repression. so i had a panic attack. trying to hide the fact only makes it harder to breathe. open honesty invites more honest help from the most unexpected of places and means.
congratulations on your internship. when the stresses of that high honor hit, i hope you will remember to come here to vent freely and often. i find that venting the gases of my high honors helps mightily in preventing boil-overs. kinda like taking the lid off a pasta pot that is boiling over.
easy does it, scout. you got this, but handle with care. we are here for you.
As for your internship, I would call or email your advisor and tell them about your request and why. They may be understanding and move you, you just never know till you ask. Good luck!
I want to talk about field placements or internships. I had to do one in Bachelor's school and two in Master's school. They are naturally stressful because we were graded and not paid. Sometimes there will be people in our lives, even in our professional lives, that kind of "trigger" us in some way.
If you think you want to change your field placement, do it now. Stay away from self-blame on this because in many professions, especially social work which was my profession, we have to serve everyone equally.
What I have learned as a social worker is our entire working life may be with a lot of "scary" clients or patients. People unfortunately at their worst, same with nursing or physical therapy, etc.
If you know the population you want to serve, ask for a placement with that population. I'd talk to the field placement people about your fears and panic attacks if you think this will pay a part at the field placement.
There are things you can do to protect yourself on the job (the field placement is an unpaid job). Such as never being in a room with a closed door with any client/patient you have a spider sense about. All things will pass and remember your goal is to graduate and get a job. Best wishes to you, it is almost over and you have come too far to quit! Stay strong!