I'm not sure to start here but I will give it a go...
In my mid to late teen years I suffered with anxiety and panic attacks. When I first started having them it was the absolute worst experience of my life, especially at that time not knowing what a panic attack even was. As I got older and into a stable career it basically went away. Fast forward to March 2020. Happily married with a 1 year old son, who I love more than I can even describe, and financially stable. I feel it necessary to say that in my position at work I typically visit anywhere from 30 to 50 people a week. That has obviously came to a halt. I have now been working from home for over 4 months. About 1 month in I started to feel the effects of the isolation and the anxiety was starting to return. At first it wasn't too terrible but I still felt it. June 1st, my wife returned to work and daycare reopened. At first it was great because I found I was able to concentrate and get more work related items done. That was short lived. The anxiety intensified and eventually led to full blown panic attacks. I started talking with a therapist mid to late June and I will say he has been great. We think what is causing my attacks is the literal feeling of being alone and the disruption in my daily routine ( that apparently I created as a coping mechanism subconsciously years ago to manage the anxiety ). I now find on Sunday evenings knowing I will be alone for the next 5 days it spirals me out of control. So this morning I find myself in the same situation. Feelings of fear, panic, and thinking the absolute worst. One thing I have found is that guided meditation does help. It may be a brief relief but it is something. In some strange way even writing this post seems to help, which I assume is because of just simply acknowledging the issue and not trying to hide from it. In summary I guess I am just looking to see if there is anyone out there experiencing the same thing or has any recommendations on ways to cope / manage the negative thoughts. Even if this post gets zero replies thank you for taking the time to read and if there is someone out there in the same position who is hesitant to reply know there is atleast 1 other person fighting with you.
So I am training on a different floor T work. The girl who is supposed to be training me isn't. She doesn't explain anything and walks around like I'm not even here. I am so mad! I am supposed to train with her again next. Week but I'd rather just be by myself. Should I ask my boss not to put me with this girl again or say so thing to the nurse? I don't know what to do.
I had to laugh at me.I deleted something and had a panic attack. Didn't realize how high my anxiety was until it happened.Drinking some liquid, even breathing, and laughing as the anxiety disappeared naturally.