Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
I feel like I can never get anything done. There are 3 adults and 4 kids in my house. This includes me, my 20 y/o sister (Jackie) and her 21 y/o husband (Connor), my 10 y/o son (Hunter), 6 y/o son (Connor or CJ), and 11 mo old twin girls (Sierra and Dakota).
I am disabled and have panic attacks daily. I also cannot stand or walk for very long, or bend and stoop because of my back and heart. I clean as much as I can and take care of the kids as best as I can. Connor works, does dishes, takes out trash, and helps with the kids. Jackie does laundry, picks up, and helps with the kids. Hunter helps with his sisters. CJ plays with his sisters and that's about it.
Hunter is very mature and responsible for his age unless his brother is in the same room. Then he gets an attitude and acts like he is 6. CJ has some major issues but has yet to get a diagnosis. He likes cutting things (he has cut up two playpens), sneaking into other people's things, and pretty much the whole "terrible twos" getting-into-stuff phase.
CJ is behind on his schoolwork. Their room is a disaster zone. My kitchen is a complete mess. There is BB's all over the living room floor that I cannot get the kids to pick up (CJ emptied the jar in the floor). There are roaches taking over my kitchen no matter what bait I use. My laundry is piled up. And the landlord still has not fixed the damn refrigerator! (And Connor actually fixed the sink cause he was tired of waiting on the landlord)
I feel like I am one more smart mouth comment or sibling argument from having a nervous breakdown! Thankfully my therapist appointment is tomorrow...that is if I can afford the $175 session since I have no insurance. If I could afford it, I would hire a housekeeper or something to come and help me get caught up one good time. *le sigh*
I am disabled and have panic attacks daily. I also cannot stand or walk for very long, or bend and stoop because of my back and heart. I clean as much as I can and take care of the kids as best as I can. Connor works, does dishes, takes out trash, and helps with the kids. Jackie does laundry, picks up, and helps with the kids. Hunter helps with his sisters. CJ plays with his sisters and that's about it.
Hunter is very mature and responsible for his age unless his brother is in the same room. Then he gets an attitude and acts like he is 6. CJ has some major issues but has yet to get a diagnosis. He likes cutting things (he has cut up two playpens), sneaking into other people's things, and pretty much the whole "terrible twos" getting-into-stuff phase.
CJ is behind on his schoolwork. Their room is a disaster zone. My kitchen is a complete mess. There is BB's all over the living room floor that I cannot get the kids to pick up (CJ emptied the jar in the floor). There are roaches taking over my kitchen no matter what bait I use. My laundry is piled up. And the landlord still has not fixed the damn refrigerator! (And Connor actually fixed the sink cause he was tired of waiting on the landlord)
I feel like I am one more smart mouth comment or sibling argument from having a nervous breakdown! Thankfully my therapist appointment is tomorrow...that is if I can afford the $175 session since I have no insurance. If I could afford it, I would hire a housekeeper or something to come and help me get caught up one good time. *le sigh*
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Years ago, I won a mirrored armoire from my job. It's in my bedroom but I rarely stand in front of it. Yesterday, I had to have a dexascan done so I had to change into a gown. There was a full length mirror in the changing room. I'm aware that I gained 5 to 7 pounds over the last year from cheating on Keto but I didn't know what it looked like. It was a reality check.
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"don't be a hate hole" has been one of my recent mantras which seems to be escaping my mouth more and more often. it emerges when i am faced with the endless list of chores i would rather not deal with. insurance. head lice. bureaucracy. in-laws. the list goes on and on and on and on, ad infinitum.reality checks requested. am i making sense?"ever'thin they is but loving leaves a rust on your...
Lord, you are Holy above all others, and all of the strength that I need is in your hands.
I am not asking, Lord, that you take this trial away. Instead, I simply ask that Your will be done in my life. Whatever that means, that is what I want.
But I admit that its hard, Lord.
Sometimes I feel like I cant go on. The pain and the fear are too much for me, and I know that I dont have the strength on my own to get through this.
I know that I can come to you, Jesus, and that you will hear my prayer. I know that it is not your intent to bring me to this point just to leave me in the wilderness alone.
Please, Lord, give me the strength that I need to face today. I dont have to worry about tomorrow.
If you just give me the strength that I need today that is all I need.
Keep me from sinning during this trial. Instead, help me to keep my eyes on you. You are the Holy Lord, and all of my hope rests in you.
Thank you for hearing my prayer.
In Jesus name. Amen.
For the living room floor, use a broom with a towel to push the bbs into the dust pan, and do just a bit if that is what it takes for rest break.
Best wishes with everything else, You are not alone.