I am feeling like I can't deal with life like I can't deal with my thoughts. My negative thoughts are making me feel like isolating myself. I feel like I am loosing my mind and this my boyfriend is so nice and good to me. I feel like he is better off without me and everyone is better off without me. I function at work but barely. I can put up a good face but I am dying inside.

Use positive words and keep writing it out.

The more you use positive words and images, the easier it will be switch your thinking in a better direction.

Am I remembering right that your introductory post here introduced me to the concept of "ROCD?" I did a bit of surfing on it and concluded that ROCD is just a new name for, "Codependency." There is tons of info available on codependency and, yes, codependency is especially rough for people who also suffer OCD.

Am I on the right track?

Are you buying a new house in addition to establishing a new romance? Inside my own skin, that would be more than enough stress to trigger my anxiety loops. Keep venting. Keep sorting.

Listening. . .

Yes I am buying a house first time alot of new and changes going on. I didn't hear about codependency. If I were codependent why do I feel.like I am questioning everything about him and my life. Why don't I just feel hapoy he is here if I am codependent? Don't know but will keep venting I hope I'm no annoying anyone if so sorry this is the only place I can write out my thoughts

If you are annoying anyone, that is their problem, not yours. Sorting through these confusions is the very reason we gather here. Sort freely. Sort often.

Buying a house for the first time is quite allot, all by itself. I'm a bit of a real estate mogul and I still short circuit on all the complexity of the process. Then we get to the stress of moving. In my own case, I don't always live in the properties I buy. Moving is yet another can of stress worms. Between the two, you have more than enough stress worms to wiggle their way into every aspect of your life, especially relationships.

Just curious here, but is this fellow involved in the house buying and moving?

I don't have allot of personal experience with codependency, but I do know it is allot more complex than love/don't love. I buy the analogy which compares it to addiction, but my lack of personal experience blinds me to an awful lot.

He is not at all I buying the house on my own. I am trying to figure out why I get this way is it really him or me or my thoughts. I just can't every day is a struggle in my head. My only rest is when I go to sleep because I know 8 won't think during this time but wake up every morning with tension on my neck and shoulder blades like tingling sensation anxious and then it starts

Buying your first house on your own is HUGE, Wantha. Inside my own skin, I let it be okay that my emotions are all over the proverbial map during a step that big and work to protect the other parts of my life from the emotional fallout. One big decision at a time.

Where are you in the buying process?

Where and I buying like area I am in Florida