Rocking you gently and crying with you, Diva.
That sucks like an industrial hoover.

For what it's worth
In my strictly personal endeavors, there always seems to come what I call, "A sink or swim moment." A place where I am either ready to fly or I need to cut my losses and let ^it^ go. In a place where I just might get fired next week, I'd leave my notes in the drawer and test my wings to see if I am ready to do the job *my* way. What do I have to lose? There really is such a thing as trying too hard.

Im sorry Diva,Its seems sometimes when people dont care they get away with so much. I hope it all works out for you.

You are trying hard and doing your best. She needs to understand. And stop being so hard on you. Just keep writing things down. And I hope it all goes well for you. And if it doesn't than it was meant to be. That's kinda of my philosophy. There's more jobs out there. Good luck. Italianmomma4ever

Yea arfie im waiting for my lunch break to call my wife and cry. ITs really hard sitting here not knowing how long I will be here. I will keep trying and try not to use my notes as much.

Thanx Annie

Italianmomma I know there are more jobs out there but I have gone thru so many in the last 2 years. My wife is getting fed up. I have to keep this job or I may lose my marriage too.

theatrediva, I'm really sorry about this. Have you asked your boss how your work has made a positive difference? I understand how easy it is for negative comments to stick in the head too. And it's not very often that others will be patient with each other, making allowance for each other's shortcomings. It could be that this boss has had so many other employees of which did not pay close attention and needed some additional help way too often. I imagine that she's coming off as way too busy to listen and understand because she is dialing up old information and processing blame on you, and this may be her way of judging you unfairly. I'd just give her more time to get to know the best of you. And if she's giving it a few more hours of consideration, she's not so much ready to fire you. In all fairness, she seems to understand second chances.

Praying that all ends well today. Love & hugs!

I can’t seem to keep a job either. I know how frustrated you must be.

Hi- I’m so sorry to hear this. Keep learning and keep doing your best.
I pray that everything works out for you.

Please keep us posted.

THanx for the comments guys. Im sitting here at my desk and im scared to move. Im scared of what work problem will come my way that I dont have the answer to. I feel like asking questions is no longer an option.

My heart goes out to you. The anticipation, on. top of trying to learn a new job, must be so hard. You're already doing your best. Is there a friendly co-worker who might answer your questions, rather than the supervisor? Hang in there. Sending positive vibes your way.

I went through exactly the same situation at my job this spring. I walked out in July 15. It was certainly affecting me emotionally and mentally and had started to take its physical toll. My boss decided in March/April after working with her for three years that she was not satisfied with my job performance. And I worked ther six years before she came along! She was keeping a log of her complaints. When I found them I was shocked. Some of the most petty things you can imagine. I no longer had any respect for her and she certainly had none for me. Long way of getting to the point of....if you’re not happy try to find something else. Don’t let it make you feel worse. I stayed in my situation for four months and it has negatively affected my self confidence and my believe that I can even handle working.

Yes AforEffort there are a couple friendly co workers that I can ask as well but some things only my boss can answer. Thanx for your comment.

iamheretoo, your situation does sound like mine. The thing is ive gone thru so many jobs recently that my wife is fed up with me. Im afraid if I lose this job she will leave me. Im so scared.

Sending good vibes your way. You're trying your best and I know thats hard to do. Whatever does happen you will come out okay in the end. I know it sucks right now but don't be too hard on yourself. And I'm sorry to hear about your wife too, I know its hard when people you love feel that way. I know its sometimes hard for people in my personal life to understand my struggles sometimes. But we gotta try to take it just day by day. And never give up trying.

Thankyou xx for your comment.