Hello to all, just a little update and desire to vent.
I ended up heading to the ER for the abdominal and digestive discomforts I have been experiencing because getting an appointment with a specialist around here is almost impossible. They performed a CT Scan of the abdominal region and checked all major organs. Nothing. No blockage. No mass. Only a clot in one of my ovaries. A very uncommon diagnosis. I was told to follow up with a gynecologist. I left the ER somewhat relieved. As we all know I was terrified (still am) that it was some type of gastrointestinal cancer. I felt somewhat peaceful the rest of that day. Sadly the stress and its maladies returned the next day. "What if they missed something?". I am back to where I started. I managed to find a GI long ways from home who is willing to see me tomorrow as well as the gynecologist. I am nervous all over again. Somehow my stomach issues seem to cease at night while I lay in bed. I try to tell myself that if it was something awful, perhaps laying in bed wouldn't ease my discomfort; therefore it may be mental.
I am so so so tired guys. I am barely eating and I think it's from fear and nerves alone. I feel so alone. My mother is incredible and insists this is all due to stress and my lifestyle. I sit at home am waiting on the older kids and husband to arrive from their days to feel "safer" than I do when I am home alone but once they are here it's really no use. I still feel the panic and loneliness, the aches, the burning and bubbling stomach sensation. Why do we suffer like this?
Has anyone in the group tried the no chase hands off kind of approach? How did it work? My husband and I after lengthy chats and fairly new damage with our ED (this has only been going on outwardly 4 months) have decided not to chase, not to put up with any further derisive bullying and treat her as if she is just another person we know that wants nothing to do with us. Truly, all the positive...
Made it to the psychiatrist today. She prescribed Paxil. I start tomorrow of 10mg for a few days and then will move to 20mg. I was on it 10 yrs ago after I had my daughter and tapered off at 3 years. I'm a bit nervous about starting it. She said to take a Xanax everyday to help with the fear of starting a new med. Drop your medication stories and experiences. Also, I took a Xanax yesterday at 330...