This anxiety gets so old! I had to take me and the kids to the dentist today. Something I always dread.....but manage to get through...without anyone knowing i'm anxious. You all know how important it is for noone to know what's going on inside us. We always want to appear in control at all times. Well today I bombed......I have been having some dizziness lately with my sinuses and allergies but mostly I think because of anxiety....kind of a new symptom for me. Well anyway...
I'm in the chair and I am hot and I am dizzy and I asked for water and it was very obvious that something was going on with me....when I was leaving I apologized for being a baby patient and she even made mention of how I had not seemed my normal self today....something none of us ever want to hear. When it's just the anxiety alone of going to the dentist...I can get through it pretty well....but I have had so much stressing me out lately. Self destructive family members, finances etc... I know the dizziness is somewhat from the dizzy sinus headaches I get but I think I am hyper focused on that symptom right now and letting it scare me to death....therefore creating more stress......I have a bad habit of holding everything inside myself unttil I feel I will explode....I guess I need to start journaling or something to get all these things that are bothering me....out of me....I have got to find some good stress reduction exercises . I wish I could get it through my thick skull that if I would do some type of stress reduction exercise everyday then maybe it wouldn't ever get to this point....you'd think after 41 years I'd of learned something. Thanks for reading.....feels good to rant sometimes.