I definitely think you should force yourself! Or do your best, anyway! Once you get there and get it out in the open with a doctor, it will start to get better. That's when you can get the help you need. It's the very first step, albeit one of the hardest. Good luck!

I don't know what time it is but I would like you to go to the phone right now and make an appointment with your MD. If you don't have one, go to the hospital where they have MD's on staff who can get you started. Then post again and let us know what they said and how you're feeling. HUgs

Me too. It has to be a crisis before I will go now. Do you have a support person to go with you to make the process easier?

Thank you Everyone.. I have a Dr. Now.. We have just started to get through the Referrals for some testing.. I just hate calling them back now to make another appt. It's easier to put it off. So, Monday I HAVE to make this appt. I dread the drive 2 hrs. away.. I dread telling my story to yet another Stranger.. Every time I get a decent M.D. they leave the area.. Thank God for My Mother.. She and I are Thelma and Louise.. I even bought necklaces that have our names on them.. She is Thelma.. My Support.. My Rock...

For me, when I get that strong of a response, something is telling me it's a bad idea. That's just me. And I trust my instincts.

When I feel that way about anything, I find a different answer. In terms of healing my body, that means going to an integrative doctor. They are very respectful in terms of providing me with all the information and allowing me to make my own decisions.

I think if you can find someone who respects you and allows you to make decisions about your own body, it may be huge for you. Not only will that help you trust doctors more - but it will allow you to trust yourself more.

What I learned about my fear around doctors is that they often prescribe pills and surgery for things that are better treated naturally. Drugs and surgery have their place, but my anxiety was related to them not respecting my opinion.

Can you identify what your instincts are telling you?

You may also really enjoy reading Dr. Christiane Northrup. She talks a lot about this sort of thing and it's wonderful to see a doctor being so respectful and kind. She has a lot of good books out including "Women's Bodies, Women's Wisdom."

Trust your gut.

I know how you feel. I have had a hard time finding good doctors who stick around, too. It's like being left by a friend that you've built up a history with and there's always the nervousness about whether the next person is going to be helpful or hard to work with. Unfortunately, I think you have no choice but to force yourself to pick up the phone and make that appointment on Monday. Maybe think of some sort of treat to reward yourself when you've completed the task. That sometimes helps me.

Good Morning Everyone... Most of the problem for me in finding a M.D. here is, we have to go to a PA.. Because there's many of those and very few M.D.'s.. In a small town we have very few of any thing to choose from. Then it's referrals to Portland.. 2 hrs. away.. Have to miss work, traffic, the waiting game of getting back results that I don't have to call them to see the out come.. Anxiety, Panic.. Easier to stick my head in the sand..lol.. Then I put myself in a position like now.. Health is Not good.. Thank you for all your kind and supportive words.. Raining here this morning.. Working today.. I have 2 Big Vacation Rental Houses to clean before 4 pm today. Stressful Job !!! Everyone have a Good Day !!

There are more PA's than MD's anymore. I just left an MD of 5 years because I felt he was becoming complacent with me. I found a great MD and have had him for about 5 months now. I find out yesterday while seeing a new doc, a Cardiologist that my new doctor is closing shop and moving away! Now I have to not only worry about how I'm going to get my prescriptions refilled without going into withdrawal's, and finding a doctor who is taking new patients!! HUgs

Seems like a Vicious Circle.. That right there is what keeps me worried and how long is this person going to be here.. PA's can do everything an MD can with a few exceptions.. Just less Schooling.. I had a PA tell me that..

I don't know if this is a possibility, but I found this place: http://naturaintegrativehealth.com/

They may have some answers for you and if they're too far away, they may know someone in your area.

We're having the same issue here - it's hard to get in to see an actual MD. They're retiring, closing shop or not taking new clients. Alternative healthcare, however, can be easier to access.

Would much rather do Natural.. A handful of pills is Not the answer.. Thank you.

I noticed that you got a doctor now, I am very happy you did. I just recently sought out a medical professional about my Anxiety and I am so happy I did because I feel so much better. I have a sense of peace. I hope you find it too. Good luck ijeannie57!