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First Day Blues - update-

lucillegem
lucillegem

first day back at university - physically - because I was taking online during the summer. Doing a mix now, but still part time. I feel like no one would understand why I am doing part time... I feel so mentally exhausted thinking about that and generally everything, the pressure, the critical judgement of people asking me what im doing... what im taking blah blah blah. TBH I dont know exactly why, but I was so nervous :/ I felt nervous if I saw a familiar face, so I crept to one corner and stayed there the whole lecture. Still not in the mood to talk(?) makes me wonder if I do have a tiny bit of social anxiety...(???) havent been diagnosis with it though 


A part of me, likes to pretend I am something, but I know I just dont feel it yet (like a happy, confident student ready to engage and take on a challenge) but me? im dreading it...


I do feel guilty for lying about it (being an ideal) pretnding to be full time, but after everything I dont feel ready YET to be a full time student. So, I am part time. i got into a few arguments with my boyfriend and parents of what the hell im doing... etc So, I just put on this persona of a person who I wish I was but arent.... yet


 I kinda perfer the online courses however there isnt much variety. And surprise, I feel nothing. I mean I do find the courses I am taking interesting, but I feel like I have no pulse. I dont feel excited about school, maybe its the blues? I was sitting in the corner, feeling nervous, and decided to draw little flowers on my notebook to help me feel calmer. I wish I was passionate about school again... 


well, thanks for reading my update! hope your having a good start to september, wish I was feeling good about september... guess thats why, tomorrows another day!

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Take a moment to see what it is you really want out of what you've written. Make a goal to do something in that direction. Keep track of "being in the moment and active in the moment".
Nobody is watching you, they are all trying to learn as well. Relax and go for it!
eittah65
eittah65
Don't feel the need to rush into becoming a full-time student. College is an emotional and exhausting journey, where you're trying to find what you want to do in life. I only started going full-time in the spring (taking online courses). I've been attending the same college since the fall of 2014 (a community college), but I'm finally in what will hopefully be my final year. My spring semester affected me both mentally and emotionally, but I proved to myself that I could do it, that I was able to handle the stress and anxiety. Don't feel the need to explain to others why you're only attending college part time. This is your journey, not anyone elses!
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