Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
I've been on antidepressants since I was 15 yo. I'm 40 now and weaned myself off of Celexa several months ago. My husband never liked me on it and I was tired all the time and my emotions felt deadened and I was more complacent in life. I was so proud of myself for getting off of celexa. Now that I've been sad, crying and having very high levels of anxiety again, I've been wanting to go back on it. My husband says that when I'm off it, it feels like he has his wife back finally again, but I've just been a sad, blubbering mess for the past few weeks. I did really well off the celexa for a few months and thought "well, I guess I didn't need it after all!". I'm sad that I was wrong and now I don't know what to do.
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I haven't written in my diary on my computer since May because I thought that my computer was dying. I got away from writing but my computer is hanging in there. I think that I will start writing in it again. It's so therapeutic.
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First, I hope everyone is doing well, and continuing to fight that good fight! Keep up the great work on yourselves; I'm rooting for all of you!So, I started doing therapy at the beginning of the year, when I was in my most depressed state, but with my therapist, I made big changes and steps in the right direction. But, over a month ago, she couldn't take my insurance anymore, and I had to stop...
25 years is a long time to be on any drug/medication. A few months is a small slice of time by comparison. I wonder if you are **just** missing the familiarity of the ritual, etc. I know I still get cravings for habits I broke decades ago. But I'm just wondering. You are the one with all the inside info on your specific case.
It helps me allot to sort these confusions within my therapy support network. It very often helps me sort through the inside info on my own specific case. This very forum is one of the places I go to that sorting. Hope you'll feel safe to do that, also.
Welcome aboard. Sort freely. Sort often. Listening.
I am not sure what your husband means that he likes you better off of the Celexa, because it sounds like you aren't doing well at all off of it.
That's what happens oftentimes... someone stops an antidepressant, and they feel "okay" for a little while, and when it's finally out of your body's system completely (about one to two months), then your depression/anxiety symptoms might come back again.
You could talk to your doctor about this. Maybe go back on the Celexa, or maybe try a different one???
If you are suffering, please get help. There is no shame if you need to go back on medication. You need to take care of you, first and foremost.
Wishing you luck in finding that balance.
However, arfie makes a very valid point that I agree with as someone who spent 16 years on medication for anxiety, depression and other diagnoses. I've been off psych meds for a decade an I *STILL* have my moments where I think "an antidepressant would help" sometimes when I feel overwhelmed by what life has decided to throw at me. It took me a LONG time to build up my toolkit for stress, and to "simply" (not so simple AT ALL) learn to be okay with feeling anything- I'd been numb for so long.
There is absolutely nothing wrong with wanting to numb out when things get overwhelming- when you're sad or anxious. But it's a matter of knowing what's the driving force behind the thought of "I want to go back on medication."
Your husband? It's a struggle for significant others to get the idea of "I've been numbed out for a long time" or mental health issues at all if they haven't been through it or had training in it (coming from someone who is also married) But for what it's worth? Your husband can have his say in this but should not be making the decision for you- but it seems to me you know that.
So anyway, that's my two cents. I want to clarify I am in NO way saying "don't take medication" if you need it. I'm saying if you're seeking numbness because it's familiar and you only "want" medication but don't need it? Then don't re-start it and talk to your therapist or whatever support system you have in place about whatever is leading you to seek out that numb place if that is the case.
I am truly trying not to project here and if I am I am so sorry- again, if you need the meds- get the meds by all means!
Best to you on whichever path you take!