Good morning everyone.  I had a disturbing dream last night.  That sucked.  Got up and made coffee.  Suddenly, my chest felt heavy.  I began to worry that it was because of the Keto diet that I started on Monday but I am actually feeling anxious about my days, today and tomorrow.  I have to visit my Aunt in the nursing home this afternoon.  There will be cake.  I love birthday cake.  I can't have a piece.  Then I have to head to my best friend's house 45 minutes away and then we are headed to Philadelphia to pick up her boyfriend and go to a bar for dinner.  I can order something but I'm not happy with the choices or having to spend the money.  Then we are going to a free outdoor David Bowie tribute band concert.  That will be fun.  Tomorrow I am going to see a one-time gig by a band that was popular in the 70s in my area.  Again, I don't want to eat something Keto or spend the money.  The reason that I am on a Keto diet is because I just found out that I am insulin resistant.  I went to the endocrinologist because of several reasons but mostly because of fatigue that lasts for days and because of a 20 month diet where I only lost 50 pounds.  So I gave all this newly bought food away and was put on a Keto Anti-inflammatory diet.  In addition to dieting, I joined Planet Fitness in October.  One thing that was actually good about losing weight slowly is that I only have a tiny bit of loose skin.  So, I called my Aunt to wish her a happy birthday and she mumbled something about 5 people who want to kill her today.  She's been delusional for a while now.  I miss the old her.  So I am about to take my meds for the morning which includes psych meds.  That should help me.  I guess this is just a vent post.  I also am very lonely and a little upset with the dating scene.  I hope that you have an awesome day!  If you listen to Pandora, I suggest Seether Radio or Nelly Furtado Radio.