Anxiety Support Group
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When i was 11 years old, my grandfather passed away. I was really close with him. I heard his last breath. I went in there after he had passed away and i saw him laying there with his eyes and mouth open and he was kind of arched back. I remember running out of the room crying, i remember running to my bed and laying down and crying some more. I remember crying myself to sleep that night.
A week before he passed away he called my mom on the other phone line and told her that he thought he was dying. he said to her, " Holly (my mom's name) I think i died, i think im dying." And i think i picked that up from him because when i feel weird or something doesn't feel right with me i always say, I think im dying... the day of the night he died, he was so confused and out of it. He was reaching for the ceiling and saying, "God take me" over and over and i remember running to go get my mom....
I think his death traumatized me and i never fully got over it. Im 22 years old now and i always think im going to die or im dying. I have all these fears of things that can kill me instantly and i think its because his death traumatized me a lot.
Like right now my main fear is having a stroke, and about 10 minuets ago i suddenly got confused and thought i was having a stroke because of it even though i've had this fear for a month and am always feeling confused. I think im so confused though because the past 4 days all i can think about is my grandfather's passing.
I don't know what to do. I keep crying and i cant help it. I miss him so much. And i think his death is the reason i have so much anxiety about death in general. I dont know what to do. I dont want to cry anymore over it. Im lost.
Does anyone have any advice for me on how to deal with this? Does you guys think this is the reason why i fear that im having a stroke or dying all the time? I'm sorry this was so long and i hope this made sense to everyone. I'm sorry if i kind of rambled on, im just struggling right now . :'(
A week before he passed away he called my mom on the other phone line and told her that he thought he was dying. he said to her, " Holly (my mom's name) I think i died, i think im dying." And i think i picked that up from him because when i feel weird or something doesn't feel right with me i always say, I think im dying... the day of the night he died, he was so confused and out of it. He was reaching for the ceiling and saying, "God take me" over and over and i remember running to go get my mom....
I think his death traumatized me and i never fully got over it. Im 22 years old now and i always think im going to die or im dying. I have all these fears of things that can kill me instantly and i think its because his death traumatized me a lot.
Like right now my main fear is having a stroke, and about 10 minuets ago i suddenly got confused and thought i was having a stroke because of it even though i've had this fear for a month and am always feeling confused. I think im so confused though because the past 4 days all i can think about is my grandfather's passing.
I don't know what to do. I keep crying and i cant help it. I miss him so much. And i think his death is the reason i have so much anxiety about death in general. I dont know what to do. I dont want to cry anymore over it. Im lost.
Does anyone have any advice for me on how to deal with this? Does you guys think this is the reason why i fear that im having a stroke or dying all the time? I'm sorry this was so long and i hope this made sense to everyone. I'm sorry if i kind of rambled on, im just struggling right now . :'(
I think you have some PTSD. That was a traumatic experience to see your grandpa die. I promise you that he would not want you to feel the way you are feeling today. He is with God now and there is no pain or fear or sadness in heaven.
Make an appt. to see a professional and get some relief. They will give you some tools to cope and move forward. There is much joy and happiness in the world and you don't need to waste another day worrying about dying. You are young, healthy, and strong. Start living and trusting that things will be OK. That is what your grandpa would want for you and anyone else that knows you.
Sending you love and hope. Every day is a new day.
I agree with the previous post you should def. see someone, it can only get better with help! I had an insane fear of school shootings and I was able to conquer it with some help from my counselor!
Sending hugs your way! We always underestimate our ability to cope so stay strong!!!
I feel you. I am unable to say exactly who or what causes it, but as an Emergency Medical Technician I have seen my share of death.
My anxiety happens to mess with me on the side now a days where I think I am going to have a heart attack and die. Not sure why, it just does. So I understand your fear of dying.
I can be having a good day, etc, then just be sitting on a couch and think, is this it? It is a horrible feeling.
We have to remember that we have irrational thoughts due to our anxieties and perhaps someone can help you overcome your fear of death.
The fear of the stroke was your mind playing tricks on you. As an EMT I know symptoms for Heart Attack, stroke, etc and believe you me, some days I talk myself into all of them!
You need to try and distract yourself the best you can, think of a positive thought or move onto a project, laundry, dishes, etc provided you have been checked recently and know you are merely suffering from anxiety.
I've been checked, but each day presents a different struggle. I have trbl speaking to my wife about the future, cause at times I am not sure I am going to last the day.
I recommend this site:
www.NDERF.org
Bob12