i kinda understand, i think for me it's more denial in some twisted way...make sense?

This may sound strange..

but i have a big problem with always feeling like nothing is ever perfect enough and im just not good enough so in a way i feel like "im not good enough" to have anxiety.

weird?

Gabsy -I hear ya! I really relate to the feeling that I'm just not enough. Hope20z -do you feel guilty for being depressed?

just the fact that these thoughts are in your head is a ligitimate reason for you to be on meds and the fact that you are worrying about it is what people with pa/aniety spend half of their time doing. sorry hun. but i believe nobody would spend time thinking these things if it wasn't legit! good luck :)

sounds like anxiety to me...i often worry that i am "faking" my illness and that if i really wanted to, i could snap my fingers and get better. i feel guilty, like i should control my illness. BUT, that is simply not true. depression, anxiety, and bipolar(which i have) are medical conditions, and they require medication and therapy. so while we do what we can to control it, the illness is real, and we have nothing to be ashamed about.

Wow, i thought I was the only one who feel guilty about having the illiness, I am on SSD, did not even have to go through it a second time, i was schocked, i did not expect to get it, even though i have worked 30 + ys, now i feel guilty for getting ssd...weird, ugh..?

If you are having those thoughts, you are definitely not faking it. Hang in there and if you have a therapist, talk to him/her about it.

mate i think that shit comes from the fact ur a man and ur probably jus a bit embarresed about it which is part of ANXIETY!! dnt worry i feel exactly the same take ur negativity and realise it can make u stronger. Trust me hlf the people who think they bad if ever nefin like what ur goin through happened to them theyd have a harder time dealin with it then u! i know its hard and everyone always sez it is but thats y everyone sez it.

maybe sometimes knowing that we need some help or that there is something wrong makes us feel strange asking for help or for anything from someone? I dunno... but I understand how you feel. It's almost like if I had a medical problem that people could understand easier... like physical pain or something is easier for some to relate to than a panic attack or our fears... I dunno what I'm saying it's hard to explain... it's not like I want something physical to happen to me but it would probably be easier for someone to relate to than just *I'm scared*...

besides I'm sure that almost all of us have tried to explain to someone they trusted what they are going through and I'm sure that we have all had someone come back with the stupid response of "just stop worrying and get over it" and given us that *what the heck is your problem* look. Makes us feel kinda shot down when we aren't understood.

Are you seeing a counselor?

Thank you for sharing. I feel the same way! I often feel I am faking it all. I feel I am not depressed enough to take medication or seek professional help. I worry about this constantly and I often wonder if this is due to the anxiety itself. One day I think I need help the next day I think I'm just being oversensitive and too analytical or making a big deal out of a normal situation. I am also afraid a doctor will think I am faking it.

I always think I'm just faking it, like I'm trying to be crazy for attention. I think in my own way its me trying to assert controll over my illnesses like, I could stop being crazy at any moment if I chose, but I dont want to. Its also a way for me to shout at myself and not give myself as much sympathy as I deserve.

other people make you feel that way sometimes, depression/ anxiety is something that can be thought away, which is pure bullshit. could be that yourre in something of denial? I went a long time TOO long before seeking treatment, telling myself there wasnt ne thing wrong with me, telling myself i was just messed up or wanting attention.

i always feel eith like i'm faking or liying. like recently i was physically sick. i mean really sick. and even had to go to the hospital because it hurt to breath. and i had to miss a lot of school. but when i went back and showed my teachers my doctors note, i felt guilty. like i had been faking the whole time.