thank you for your comment, do you think maybe you could link me to those groups if it's not to much to ask

If you put the word cutting into the search (the magnifying glass pic) the groups will come up I just did it for you but dont know how to send it to you i hope this helps

Your complaints about your stomach might be a clue that something down there could be at least partly responsible for your symptoms. My mom and I have had GI problems, depression, anxiety, etc... for over 7 years. We have a chronic enterovirus infection caused by Coxsackie B2 and B6. Sadly, only a very few doctors are aware of this. Check out the Enterovirus Foundation and Enteroviruses .com websites. Other possibilities could be H pylori {the ulcer bacteria] or Candida yeast overgrowth [check out the Yeast Connection book for info about this]. Whatever is going on, you need to get excellent nutrition and hydration somehow. Hang in there and hugs to you.

thank you for the responses, I found a cutting group and I need to see a doctor I'll bring it up when I do.

hello I too am a cutter, well haven't done it in some time, a year or so...and i have chronic panic disorder, anxiety and ptsd. i guess i also suffer from depression. And wow if what you said didn't hit me like a ton. i find the majority of my time lately in bed, i don't hurt when I'm asleep for one i also have fibromyalgia and arthritis , and several other painful things...ha..kinda funny pain to inflict on myself cuz i don't have enough. wow my point is that its so hard to actually see what we do, that when we finally do see we actually are beginning to heal. so it takes longer then some , when my dad past it took me 5 yrs to pop out of bottle of rum, when i did i saw clearly that , that wasn't n e more fun, and slowly but surly i got better n better. what did i do, well kereoke to be honest, i sang in clubs, and scared to death but kept doing it like a job, i didn't drink either, since, the club has closed so now i have an online app. smule sing and it i think has set me back. now i don't go anywhere, haven't in i duno how long.
i think its time we both get out of bed n head on into town, shop till we drop, and actually forget what anyone thinks...im game... seems scary but it needs to be done... and true this cutting ...welp i haven't and i haven't wanted to for a while, i think seeing my friends daughter do it made me see what i was doing to ,myself. i cant say that i liked what i saw, i only know that i felt n still feel like i didn't do myself any good in that...and so far its kept that inside and quite...lets hope this works... be good to yourself....i keep telling myself this... big hugs ...
oh as far as your stomache i think it could be a few things anxiety makes my stomache hurt then i cant eat then i don't want to eat... well is like dominios and so i take a pill previcid from my doctor and it stops that nervous belly thing we get and i can eat, see not eating or keeping hydrated makes you have panic or anxiety and so u need to always have a small meal 3 to 5 times a day, this way you keep yourself free of having dreams etc, because it all falls in play. and always carry and drink on a bottle of water. you will see you will feel way better. just saying...

i'm really sorry if my post caused you any stress, thank you for commenting I really hope things get better for you too. you seem very kind and caring

Please get help. You will get better.

I know it’s hard right now, and you have every right to feel the way you do. You seem like you’ve gone through some pretty shitty stuff. I have to say, having the courage to post during such a dark time is pretty badass. You are one tough cookie! Just try to remember you are so loved, there are a million people ready to listen to you. We know you’re in pain, it’s valid and you are not wrong for feeling.

thank you so much

Sorry you're in a dark place right now. Reaching out here is great step toward letting out your feelings. We can't get better until we acknowledge what we are feeling. You sound sensitive and caring, and like you have had some rough situations put on you. Have you been seeing a counselor? For me, counseling has given me a safe place to "let down". Please keep reaching out here and to others.

I am very sensitive, probably too much so and yes I've had a therapist for like 8 years or so

How have your seen yourself change as a result of counseling? In your heart, what do you believe is your next step?

I honestly believe I'd be dead without it but I couldn't even imagine what my next step would be

that's a good idea I'm really bad at eating and I'm not sure how much that affects my mood

thank you