Hi all. Been awhile since ive been around and I don't usually post often but I find myself today in need of some advice/support and this seems like a good place to reach out. For the past few weeks my anxiety has gotten a lot worse. I find myself unable to concentrate on things and I'm fidgeting constantly if not pacing around the room over and over again. Ive also been having this overall feeling of disconnection from everything and everyone. Its like living in a dream world but having no control over anything. I've stopped reaching out to people in my life because I cant be around them without feeling anxious and uncomfortable. Its even worse when I'm by myself at home. I just get hit with waves of thoughts all at once that dont stop. So many that I cant even seperate one from another to try and manage what's going on. It has gotten to the point where sometimes I cant move from the couch its like I'm trapped in an endless cycle of my own thoughts and its literally paralyzing. I also have a problem with depression which combined with my anxiety is crippling at times. I'm usually able to crawl out of these spiraling episodes but lately they have been so frequent its starting to scare me. The worst part about the whole thing for me though is not being able to ask for help because trying to explain what is happening to someone who has never experienced this kind of anxiety is impossible. Every one wants to assume it has a singular root cause that I need to acknowledge and fix but that is not the case. Sometimes I dont even know why I'm having an anxiety attack so how can I explain that or fix it. Having to deal with this everyday has become overwhelming and exhausting. I find I'm also having a lot of self harm related thoughts of which I wont go into detail. In the past I have conquered them but right now I'm struggling with them again and I'm finding it a lot harder to manage. I guess I'm just hoping someone here might be able to relate and maybe offer some advice.