Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
I have really bad (if not severe) Didaskaleinophobia which is the fear of school. I went to schools for 2nd and 5th grades but they were the worst 2 years of my life. I really enjoy Homeschooling. My mom just told me that she thinks I'm not learning the things I need to learn to pass her requirments (her requirments are about 5 pages of books I have to read, skills I have to master, languages I have to learn, etc.). She's thinking about putting me into an online school even though she knows schools teach propaganda and lies. I had a full-blown Panic Attack right in front of her and she just kept on talking about the online school (How I have to do work, how there are camps, how I have to talk to people) I ended up running to my room unable to breathe normally and pulling alot of my hair out. And do you know what she did? She made a phone call to a car insurance place.
Please help me. I don't know what to do and I am so scared!
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I haven't written in my diary on my computer since May because I thought that my computer was dying. I got away from writing but my computer is hanging in there. I think that I will start writing in it again. It's so therapeutic.
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First, I hope everyone is doing well, and continuing to fight that good fight! Keep up the great work on yourselves; I'm rooting for all of you!So, I started doing therapy at the beginning of the year, when I was in my most depressed state, but with my therapist, I made big changes and steps in the right direction. But, over a month ago, she couldn't take my insurance anymore, and I had to stop...
on my own phobia smorgasbord, it seems like one phobia leads to another. my life becomes a living hell when i let those irrational fears (phobias) dictate my life. i challenge them whenever possible. in a case such as you just described, i might force myself to take an on-line course, just to challenge the phobia.
i'm grateful to say Didaskaleinophobia is not to be found on my own phobia smorgasbord. i love learning. i consider a day where i learn something to be a good day, even when i don't much like the subject matter.
That was way more than I expected. Sorry.
a debate which has arisen during my own maternal exposure to home schooling (80's to present) is teaching social skills. all the greatest, most advanced learning in the world isn't worth a plug nickel without the social skills to share and collaborate. without the social skills to manage that long list of fears you just listed, all my studiously gained knowledge has the value of a stack of books left to rot in an isolated alley.
here in my second parenting career, with the maskite promotion of homeschooling, i am more convinced than ever that the social skills they learn from going to public school is far more important than any facts and figures i can teach my foster children.
would social skills be a valid field of study for you? just wondering. . . it remains yours to sort.
I've learned things about myself there. 1)
am unable to be unkind to others outside of my immediate family which draws people towards me.
2) I love to make presentations but I don't like presenting them.
3) I can make friends with almost everyone.
Unfortunately, due to Covid, Eagleridge closed and I can no longer go there. I ended up not seeing anyone for a whole year. My Anxiety really spiked during that year and now I can't even look people in the eye.
Eagleridge was an amazing experience unlike the schools I've been to.
Maybe the online school would work if you didn't have to turn your camera on? I don't know if that would help, but it could. That way, you could see other people and get used to that for a while, without it having to be in person. Try to think of it as a new adventure; that's what always helps me.
But if you feel like it is really something you don't want to do, don't beat yourself up about it. Healing takes time and it takes effort. Focus on your health and yourself first!
I'm really hoping he can help me.
You said think of it as a new adventure. I'm a Whovian (a big fan of Doctor Who). Are imaginary friends (like the Doctor) a good therapy thing to help me?