Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
Have you ever felt lonely but yet surrounded by people? Do people really notice you and even care your there? It's so weird but sometimes I have deep thought as I question my life overall. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy my life but I have struggled with Social Anxiety. Is that feeling of being judged, or people focusing on me that gets me running to the nearest door. My face turning red, my stomach in a knot, sweating and hyperventilating. Ahhh sweet old anxiety, I know I'm not alone but I wish I could just get over it and move on. Life can be a little crazy sometimes, right now I have 2 parents sick, dealing with 3 young kids being homeschooled, new job at work, marriage problems, so I am struggling with keeping a positive mind. I push myself to smile tell myself I have control over my anxiety. Anyways, thanks for reading this. I hope you have great night
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I haven't written in my diary on my computer since May because I thought that my computer was dying. I got away from writing but my computer is hanging in there. I think that I will start writing in it again. It's so therapeutic.
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Years ago, I won a mirrored armoire from my job. It's in my bedroom but I rarely stand in front of it. Yesterday, I had to have a dexascan done so I had to change into a gown. There was a full length mirror in the changing room. I'm aware that I gained 5 to 7 pounds over the last year from cheating on Keto but I didn't know what it looked like. It was a reality check.
Yup, I know that feeling all too well. I was raised in the back of a station wagon with 10 siblings. I isolate in a crowd far more easily than I isolate when I am alone. When I am alone, I can connect with nature and random strangers. In a crowd I am far too hyper-vigilant to connect easily with anything or anybody.
Fast forward to my second parenting career and as a caregiver I all too often feel like a household appliance. Toast is ready. Clothes are washed. Floors are mopped. Corona laws are complied with. Thank you for the harsh judgements with which you appreciate my service.
Sigh. . .
I cope by venting freely and sorting often while I pay extra attention to my strictly personal self-care. I help no one by hurting myself.
Steadying support while you find what works for you. That is one hell of a load you are carrying. Be gentle with yourself and patient with the process.
You've taken the important first step in writing it out.
Yes, you can be lonely in a room full of people. It's the sensation of not being connected in the moment to the surroundings.
Best wishes as you find your better balance.
Regardless of getting your spouse to help, the trick for me is to challenge my negative thoughts. From the wording of your post, maybe try listing out your blessings? I hope this is true for you, but try to stop and savor some of the moments with your 3 kids. Moments that you wouldn't get to witness if they were at school. Granted, those moments may not be worth the price you're paying for them--but at least don't let them go to waste.
Prayers friend.