Anxiety Support Group
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I just really need to vent this out and have some words of encouragement...
As of late I have felt so lonely and out of place. I feel I have no one to talk to and when I put myself out there I am misunderstood. I am 23 years old...I should be out enjoying my life and meeting new people..!!!
For some reason I always have my ex boyfriend in the back of my mind. We dated for about 6 months and I fell for him SO hard. I gave him my everything and made myself into this person who did anything he wished and wanted. My parents did not like him for good reason ( EX: while we were out watching HIS football games it got very bad out and a snow storm was in effect...he said he couldnt drive me home until the game ended...and at that point the roads were so bad...my parents were fuming! so was i! )
Anyways, deep down i knew he would always put himself first and would never be the caring, concerned boyfriend I hoped for. It killed me to see him choose drinking over me or always making me drive to his house to see him. Even so I continued to adore him and make him dinner, give him massages, etc...All while i was working full time and commuting to school and hour each way. He worked as a bar back for 4 hrs a day and then UPS at night from 3 am- 8 am. tough life !! ...
I finally had the courage to break it off after a trip to Wildwood we took with his dad and dad's gf. The whole trip I remember thinking, "Why am I here with someone who hurts me and is only concerned with his well being?" On the way home I silently cried to myself and knew it was the time to do it.
It's been about a month since we last spoke and i cant seem to shake him off my mind. It's driving me crazy ! everything reminds me of him! i just wanted him to love me like i loved him....
whoever is reading this...thank you...i know it's alot. but there is so much more i can say...! I just want to forget him and have live for myself
As of late I have felt so lonely and out of place. I feel I have no one to talk to and when I put myself out there I am misunderstood. I am 23 years old...I should be out enjoying my life and meeting new people..!!!
For some reason I always have my ex boyfriend in the back of my mind. We dated for about 6 months and I fell for him SO hard. I gave him my everything and made myself into this person who did anything he wished and wanted. My parents did not like him for good reason ( EX: while we were out watching HIS football games it got very bad out and a snow storm was in effect...he said he couldnt drive me home until the game ended...and at that point the roads were so bad...my parents were fuming! so was i! )
Anyways, deep down i knew he would always put himself first and would never be the caring, concerned boyfriend I hoped for. It killed me to see him choose drinking over me or always making me drive to his house to see him. Even so I continued to adore him and make him dinner, give him massages, etc...All while i was working full time and commuting to school and hour each way. He worked as a bar back for 4 hrs a day and then UPS at night from 3 am- 8 am. tough life !! ...
I finally had the courage to break it off after a trip to Wildwood we took with his dad and dad's gf. The whole trip I remember thinking, "Why am I here with someone who hurts me and is only concerned with his well being?" On the way home I silently cried to myself and knew it was the time to do it.
It's been about a month since we last spoke and i cant seem to shake him off my mind. It's driving me crazy ! everything reminds me of him! i just wanted him to love me like i loved him....
whoever is reading this...thank you...i know it's alot. but there is so much more i can say...! I just want to forget him and have live for myself
3 years ago I was in exactly the same boat as you. I was 19/20 and I fell for a lad who we will name Ben for the sake of things. He was in the RAF and I loved the bones off him, loved him so much that I put up with him coming home 2 or 3 times a month, then saying he'd rather see his friends .. but he told me everything I want to hear and when we were together it was amazing. but the fact of the situation was, is that I had to fight to be in his agenda. I loved him so much it had to be me that saw straight through him. In the end I found out he had cheated on me and no only that, got the god damn girl pregnant behind my back as well possibly exposing me to any STD's and that. But yet I still took him back!!! Anyway it took my strength to end it and what I am getting at is that you were strong enough to make that decision yourself and a lot of women out there stay in broken relationship for the sake of it and make excuse after excuse.
I do have sympathy for you because I know how you feel and you just want to hibernate because you feel like that one thing that you had that was going well for a bit is now gone. I do still think about the man named Ben, sometime a friend request on Facebook will pop up, or I will get some pissed up pathetic message off him via email (which is the only way he can contact me now as I changed my number and also moved now) saying that i was the best thing he ever had and nothing will change that and one day he will win me back. well when I got engaged. I accepted his friend request over Facebook and when he saw it I got the most pathetic sorry message off him and that was that. my reply was one word. 'Bye' - he still tries to add in-between the different girls he goes through but I no now, that, that man that was meant for me was out there and I have him now and the pain that the man named Ben put me through, has gone, you just have to be strong and put yourself out there and meet new people, and hope that your Mr.Right will come along one day and then all that love you want to give which is making you feel so lonely will hit you right bang in the face and you will wonder what all this heartache was all about.
If you need to chat I am here. x