I got a.weird.text.from brother yesterday while I was at work.  He asked me if I remembered anything that might of happened when I was younger around mom or dad that made.me.feel uncomfortable.  I told him no, that, I lived at my grandmother's house.mostly and just remember thinking our parents were strangers.  He went on to say something to the affect that he thinks our.mother might have molested.him.  At this point, knowing her and despising her as I did, I wouldn't be surprised.

He did tell me that he is back in counseling and will be bringing this all to light.  Just recently in the last year, he has gotten divorced, had another woman move in, then they broke up.  I keep reminding him be needs to stay away from women...they will be his downfall.  They either wind up pregnant or they cheat on him.  For the first time in his life, he is alone and he is having a hard time dealing with it.  I can listen but only to a point where when my anxiety starts up I have to back away.  I've tried to help and save people my whole life at the expense of my mental and physical expense and I cant this time.  The terrible thing is, i feel guilty about acknowledging that.  

Roomie and I talked last night.  He wants to buy a piece of land and out a "shouse" on it.  It's a shop for all his cars with a house attached to it.  I have always talked about chickens and goats so I'd probably get some.  It's a exciting thought.  Getting out of the city would be nice. 

I had to tell my brother to stop texting last night.  He kept texting telling me there are two companys in a bidding war over the house.  I don't need the drama of all that so I finally told him to stop texting me about it.  It's his house, his money, his life....leave me out of it.  He even asked me if he thought he should accept an offer.  I told him that the decision doesn't affect me so he needs to make it.  Ultimately, hes the one winning or losing.  

The air at work has been weird.  I had taken last Friday off and found out the new girl wasnt there because the person she was living with had Covid.  I'm surprised boss let her come back to work yesterday.  No work to do at work...I'm sure I'll be sitting around all day with nothing to do as usual.  Too little work for three people.  I've decided I might as well stay where I'm at for the time being...if we do buy.land and relocate, then I may have to change jobs eventually anyway.  Doesnt make sense to start a new one.  Although....working at Home Depot in the garden center might entice me.  Not  to mention, it is close by and I could ride my bike to work when it's not raining.