Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
For some reason when I'm doing well, I veer from this site. I wish I didn't do that, I should get on here regularly just to help others and vent if I need to. This may be a long one. Since I was last on here, I started my own small business, which I love. It's made me feel somewhat normal as I'm agoraphobic and don't do well in the typical workplace setting. Also, I got cheated on by my ex, several times with the same woman, he begged for me back and when I wouldn't take him back, he married that woman. They're now getting divorced 3 months later. ALLLLLSO, I started seeing someone else in that time...really great guy in the beginning, but I could tell he had some avoidance issues, I overlooked them, and then 11 months later, he ghosted me. No reason, I gave him ample opportunity to let me know if something was wrong. The last day I talked to him, he told me that he loved me and that he saw a future with me. This was about 6 weeks ago now so I'm starting to heal and accept but it's almost as if he died. But he didn't. He has chosen not to give me a "Why" or any closure whatsoever. I've only called him twice and that was soon after our last meeting. After call #2 6 days later, I sent him a message that I got the hint and I wished him the best.
I think all of this is really taking it's toll on me but I have to stay well and focused on my business. Mentally, I'm...maybe avoiding these things that I need to process and that's affecting me phsyically. My irritable bowel is flared up(maybe just SIBO, not sure), my gastritis is kicking my butt, and my anxiety symptoms are definitely there. Shaky, racing heart, blah blah. I'm in therapy, and have been for some time and she suggests that I journal, which I have bought one and have written in, but I'd find writing here to be therapeutic as well.
Anywany, thanks for reading. Take care.
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I haven't written in my diary on my computer since May because I thought that my computer was dying. I got away from writing but my computer is hanging in there. I think that I will start writing in it again. It's so therapeutic.
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Years ago, I won a mirrored armoire from my job. It's in my bedroom but I rarely stand in front of it. Yesterday, I had to have a dexascan done so I had to change into a gown. There was a full length mirror in the changing room. I'm aware that I gained 5 to 7 pounds over the last year from cheating on Keto but I didn't know what it looked like. It was a reality check.
that is, indeed, enough to sort that it will, indeed, take its toll. the load is easier when shared. share freely. share often.
Congrats on your small business. That sounds great and you should be very proud. Anxiety keeps me from ever being brave enough to own a business but that would be nice to set my own rules. Good riddance on the compulsive cheater, he probably did the same to her. As for the other guy, sounds like he has serious issues to not be able to communicate. You can’t be in a relationship for 11 months and then disappear. Not even sure you can call that ghosting knowing someone that long.
I hope your symptoms get better. I too am having GI issues.