You experience a great deal of good as well when you don't have your anxiety. Your anxiety isn't a permanent fixture in your life. It comes and it goes. Just fight it every day. I learned something new yesterday and I wanted to share it. Do the opposite of what your brain is thinking. If your brain is telling you not to eat then you eat. If your brain is telling you to sleep then you wake up. It's all your brain trying to control your feelings. Only YOU control your feelings. Thank God that you were born. Give Him your problems and He will help you get through it. Believe me. I have been having trouble everyday this past week yet I've made it to work and done everything I'm supposed to do. The anxiety walks with me but I don't let it win. Hope this helps.

Julie

I use to feel that way and sometimes still do, but I'm glad I'm here, life does improve, my anxiety has come a long way since then. I still get panic attacks and fear about every day things but you have to fight it.

Barbara,

It sounds like you're going through a really rough time right now and that life seems overwhelming. Life is overwhelming, I agree. Sometimes, we just need to take a deep breath and take a step back from things to regain our focus and pull out the strength that always lies inside of us.

I'm wondering if you've ever considered that there is some sort of meaning in your struggle. I believe that everything in our lives has meaning, and that this is especially true for suffering. What can you gain from your experience? How can you use this to make you stronger, wiser, more compassionate?

I am reading a wonderful book right now that is on this topic exactly. It's called "Man's Search for Meaning" by Viktor Frankl. If you enjoy reading it, I think it might really help you with some of how you're feeling right now. I know reading and reflecting on Frankl's words has helped me in regards to my own anxiety/depression. Maybe it could help you as well.

Even though things feel horrible right now, remember, they will not forever. If you have to, continually remind yourself that this is not permanent. You will get through this. And remember to take good care of yourself and be kind to yourself. You will be okay.

Feel free to message me if you ever need support or need to vent.

Sweety, that is part of life. It isn't all smiles and roses. There are going to be hard times as well as good times, that's just the way it is. I'm sure we all have been so down that we wished we were never born but those feelings pass when things start looking up. One thing you wrote that really caught my eye was when you said, "things keep coming up that COULD be bad.".. You are already anticipating things to be bad before they even happen and that is dangerous thinking. 99% of what we worry about never comes to fruition, and if it does, we have to learn the best way to deal with it and not let it take us down. Yes, you WOULD miss the good times. Hugs GB

I can relate to what you're saying. My anxiety was very bad and would make me physically ill. I often wished I were dead, and the nonstop anxiety caused deep depression. From what you're saying, I think you might be depressed, too. Somehow the anxiety lifted, and I'm responding to medication. The intense anxiety you experience can lift, too. Although I will have anxiety and some degree of depression for life, I find I no longer wish I were dead and am enjoying life although I still struggle.

Whew, that was long winded. Are you in any treatment, meds or therapy? You deserve a break--.

I am on meds. Have been for a long time. Had lots of years of therapy.
Latest was at an anxiety clinic. Feeling a little better today. Trying
to think positive. But it is sure hard. Spent near 51 years having
negative attitude.

Barbara

I totally agree with jreyna when it comes to doing the opposite. I have to do that EVERY DAY!!! It's how I get by. It's how I'm socially accepted. If I went by my "gut" or my own emotions, I would be curled up in the back of a dark closet all the time. Anxiety is the worst. I can handle suicidal depression better than I can the anxiety. I wish I had Jreyna's faith, but I don't have that. I just have my kids. The only reason I even try. All my meds quit working, and the ones that take my anxiety away make me non functional. I hope things get better for the both of us.

Dear Barbara,
Thanks for having the courage to say this honestly. I too have felt this way often. Yet even now (aged 61), I am glad that I hung in there. I am still hanging in there. Even if you don't think so, people would miss you - your unique self is of value in the world, even if you can't always feel that way. I am lucky enough to have raised two chilren - their lives and their love for me keep me going. But I am on my own apart from my kids, so day to day life can be lonely and full of anxiety, fear and hopelessness. Do you have a dog or cat? I find that they help.
Lots of love and hugs from me,
Susan in Australia xxoo

I well Know how you feel been there plenty of times myself . Chin up it will get better and this is a great place to get advice comfort and know that you're NOT alone . Take care