For some reason today I feel like I am alone. And lonely. When I took my new position I knew that some things would change. I couldn't be a part of the group. The chit chat about the boss group. I knew that I would be whispered about behind my back. I'd be shit talked. I knew I had to be okay with that. And mostly I am. But today it was reminded to me that I am the outsider now. I don't really have anyone to talk to about work stuff. It leaves me feeling alone sometimes. I need someone to vent to and I can't go to my staff because I am now the one in charge and truthfully sometimes that sucks. I can't go to my boss because the last thing I want him to think is that I can't handle any of this. Which I can. I just feel like sometimes I need someone to talk to about everything.
In June, I am going to be going on a trip to Florida with my mom and brothers and we are getting there by plane and I'm really nervous about that. I've only flown on a plane one other time and I was 2 years old and I don't remember anything about it. The thought about being in a giant metal bird going who knows how high up into the air terrifies me. Also, I'm scared that the plane is going to...
I hate having an anxiety disorder. I was doing well for a bunch of months.I have been taking my meds, meditating, trying to live in the moment.Last few days my anxious brain is acting up.