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I know most of you probably dont know much about PTSD.... but ill post this here anyways :(
Today i was walking by myself up to TJ MAXX,
And i had this vivid memory about my ex boyfriend walking right past me in the airport when he was supposed to be coming to get me to take me home. The memory was clear, i saw it as good as day, and it felt real. I saw him in my mind, walking right by me with a blank stare on his face. He didnt recognize me at all. It hurt, because i had my 3 month old with me, which was his son. Well when i saw this i got very dizzy, it felt like i was a spinning top it was horrible. After that i felt really weird and spacey.
My question is, does a flashback have to be extremely bad to have one. Like does it have to be one of the more traumatic things hes done to me? I know walking right by me in the airport hurt my feelings, but i wouldnt think itd cause me to have a flashback. :(
Im very sick of having PTSD. After having this today, i kept having more vivid memories, one after another, after another, from the first time i met my ex, to the time when he tried to choke me..... Its so frustrating. My mind is never clear.
Today i was walking by myself up to TJ MAXX,
And i had this vivid memory about my ex boyfriend walking right past me in the airport when he was supposed to be coming to get me to take me home. The memory was clear, i saw it as good as day, and it felt real. I saw him in my mind, walking right by me with a blank stare on his face. He didnt recognize me at all. It hurt, because i had my 3 month old with me, which was his son. Well when i saw this i got very dizzy, it felt like i was a spinning top it was horrible. After that i felt really weird and spacey.
My question is, does a flashback have to be extremely bad to have one. Like does it have to be one of the more traumatic things hes done to me? I know walking right by me in the airport hurt my feelings, but i wouldnt think itd cause me to have a flashback. :(
Im very sick of having PTSD. After having this today, i kept having more vivid memories, one after another, after another, from the first time i met my ex, to the time when he tried to choke me..... Its so frustrating. My mind is never clear.
You were seeing the energetic memory of him passing. He wasn't there himself, but his energy was, which is why you saw him in the vision and he didn't see you.
I have felt the out of body experiences with Flashbacks too, they can be scary and feel very weird...but know that you are safe when it happens, it's like when you are dreaming and can leave your body at night, only you were doing it while awake.
Flashbacks don't have to be bad, I have been having more memories of events that have happened that were more positive, often sad usually though. My mind never clears either, I don't know many people who can quiet their mind, even though they pretend nothing is going on. Your subconcious is trying to resolve what all happened with him so it was going through everything. Having any type of vision is a gift, it just needs to be retrained to focus on what is for the highest good, instead of what bad things happened to you.
You should practice grounding. If you can be somewhere in nature, like a park, or in the yard,(or anywhere really) take a little walk breathing in and out deeply and visualizing roots comming out of the bottom of your feet into the ground and taking away any negativity. Also see white light being absorbed back into you, helping you feel better and more balanced, re-energizing you.
Whenever you are in the midst of it happening remember to just breathe in deeply for 10 seconds, hold for 10 and out for ten at least 5 times and it helps.
It will take time, you may not be able to see it now, but it will pass and you will feel better. Just try to observe what happens without attaching feelings and see what's different. It will take time to be able to do though of course, because what happened was terrible and very painful and you do need to release those feelings and heal and put positive things in place of those holes.
I hope this helps you, it is helping me.
Love and Light,
Laura