Ugh.... I have been dealing with so much the last few weeks. And I have sort of given up on what to do by this point. My anxiety gets in the way of practically everything in my life. Because of it I think I pushed away my best and only friend. She won't even talk to me. All because I wouldn't sit outside with her yesterday after school. But I have been feeling really down and depressed the last few days. My anxiety seems to be consuming my whole life. Tuesday was National Teacher Appreciation Day. I gave my favorite teachert, my math teacher a letter thanking him for everything he has done for me all year. I don't really have a father right now, my parents are divorced and I never talk to my dad, and I think I have been looking up to him as a father figure. Telling him what I did in the letter, he was pretty much the first person I had opened up to about that more openly in a long time. It felt weird to have him read it because it was the first time I let my guard down for somebody. And I am glad I did it, but I ran away as soon as he started to read it and now I feel really embarrassed about it and avoid him some. But I just need some advice because I hate the way my anxiety and the way my brain is working is messing with my life. Ruining my friendships and killing my inner self-esteem because I let my guard down once, but nothing bad happened when I did.
In June, I am going to be going on a trip to Florida with my mom and brothers and we are getting there by plane and I'm really nervous about that. I've only flown on a plane one other time and I was 2 years old and I don't remember anything about it. The thought about being in a giant metal bird going who knows how high up into the air terrifies me. Also, I'm scared that the plane is going to...
I hate having an anxiety disorder. I was doing well for a bunch of months.I have been taking my meds, meditating, trying to live in the moment.Last few days my anxious brain is acting up.