Not so much with getting help. More like, I can't watch certain things on TV like that show called Dark Matters. In one episode, a scientist did s brain transplant on a monkey. It's all reinactments, but I had a nightmare that same night. I can't watch anything too intense or anything gorey. Lastly, I can't read those health articles on Yahoo that talk about 7 symptoms people experience before having a heart attack. I guess I'm a bit OCD and stuff like that will get the anxiety going. I have surprisingly felt so much better about being so open and honest on this forum. It has helped me to see things in a clearer light. Is there something you would like to share?

Yes yes yes. My anxiety controls my life. I finally got up the nerve to go to the dr. But I never told her how bad things really are. The only person I could ever really tell everything too was my mom, and she died last new years eve. I find I have no words anymore. It is so lonely and scarey.

And esb123 I was wondering how you are feeling?

I'm glad you were able to post even when you are scared doing it. You aren't alone. I've been run by my fear of most things in life. Hope to hear from you more! I bet you have a lot to say!

Yes it has. I'll be honest. My family still doesn't really know that I suffer from anxiety. I've been on medication (Xanax) for the last three years. I took a big step a couple of weeks ago and made an appointment to see a therapist. I'm looking forward to going but I'm still nervous about what the outcome will be. I want to treat my anxiety overnight and I know that's not possible. I'm hoping that therapy will help me be able to cope and be weaned off of meds.