I feel the same way you do except for the crying. I am on Zoloft and it pretty much numbs my emotions. I have been nervous, anxious and depressed for my whole life.
I am currently going to attempt a holistic approach to this. I am reading some books and am going to discuss with my doctor about getting off Zoloft. Then I want to work on eliminating sugar and caffeien from my diet. I am also interested in alternative therapies. I am going to go back to counseling, try massage, and do yoga, tai chi and meditation.
I think this is great website and we can all get through this together. I'll keep you posted on my recovery.

sbrcware shares some great ideas. i see the part of you saying you haven't been the best mom. try not to be too hard on yourself it's not necessarily your fault. you have depression and anxiety. the fact that your self aware of how you are as a mom is a huge hurdle to overcome. be proud of yourself. i don't think my parents ever understood what they were doing was wrong.

Thanks I have tried lots of alternative meds. Go to your health food store and they can help you find stuff to help. What books are you reading? I would love to get more info on this. I like to go into a fight with lot of knowledge. Does counseling work? I start tomorrow in counseling. This will be the first time I have tried this. I never wanted to amendment that I have a problem. But I guess this is the first step. I know Im writing allot but it helps me keep my mind off me. Thanks again

Welcome to the group, I hope you find this site helpful. I have had anxiety most of my life, and I am only now slowly getting my life back on track. I find talking a great healer, be it with friends, a self help group or with professional help, I also meditate which helps me a lot and I also listen to relaxation CDs and I read a lot too. the thing that helped me the most is understanding why I was feeling the way I was, because then I could start a plan of action to get out of cycle or (habit) of worry and anxiety. I hope this in some way helps a little, best wishes, take care

Babis: How do you find out what the root of your problem is?
I am thinking I can't handle stress, but I don't know.
I am currently reading, "Living Well with Anxiety: what your doctor doesn't tell you... that you need to know"

The most helpful thing for my anxiety was therapy, over the years I have had counceling, CBT, and bereavement counceling and I attend a self help group from time to time. The bereavement counceling was the best thing I could have ever done, it brought up all of my anxiety issues and from there I was able to start to address them. I have also recently read a book called "at last a life" by paul david, it's about how he recovered from anxiety .It's helped me a lot with my anxiety.