Anger Management Support Group
Anger management commonly refers to therapeutic techniques by which someone with excessive or uncontrollable anger can control or reduce their emotions. Typical examples include the use of deep breathing and meditation as a means to relaxation. Psychologists recommend a balanced approach, which both controls the emotion and allows it to express itself in a healthy way.
too many etc issues to explain, i am in other groups and have written a bit about the major issues. i have been away from this site for too long, i have adult add, social anxiety and severe depression. moved back to homestate of texas which hasn't F'n changed since i was a teenager in the '70s. no help for poor folks with medical unless on medicade with kids or social security, well i have been fight social security for years now i have to start all over again in a state which has NO medical for poor people who don't qaulify for their version of medical insurance. that is one issue.
i have had at least three days in the past two weeks where i have been SO f'n angry, made my blood pressure go high and i couldn't calm down for hours.
the main issue? what the F happened to my life, i'm 63 and my whole life is shot to hell.
why did she do this to me? my supposedly un-diagnosed schizophrenic wife. she isn't my wife, she is the original. my wife was her alter and her schizophrenia or whatever it is, for at least 14 years was dormant. then the shit hit the fan jan. 2019. i tell people my wife is passed since mid-march 2019, that was the last time she, well, "existed." the original, an angry hateful soulless individual, she didn't want anything around as a reminder or whatever else, about me and her alter. she has successfully alienated what family she has left, including her daughter. the only three or four people she associates with are ones who have no clue about her. they "see" her and even though she is now, seemingly pernamently in her delusion seriously believes her, whatever, as real. yeah two people she knew years ago before me, her old BF who beat her and emotionally caused her issues and his totally stupid mother. the other two? her meth dealers. yeah, it all came back, this psychological thing due to the environment of fear and her return, after 14 years to meth.
don't judge.
my anger comes from that...my anger comes from how i am living now...from where i am living now...from not being able to control my anxiety, adult add, chronic spine pain, chronic migraines, cluster headaches---i was on an Rx for Norco for years, when i lived in California, my doctor knew it was the only thing which helped me and my pain. i come back home to texas and NOTHING HAS CHANGED. it's still the caveman attitude, control over people, no humanitarian programs and NOTHING to help poor people worth shit. i love texas, it is my birthplace but i am ashamed of texas for its draconian laws. one has to go through SO MUCH medical bullshit with idiot foreign born doctors who INSIST on surgery for the situation...yeah, want to make me a f'n cripple? yeah, let's do surgery which guarantees a 90% chance i will live what i have left of life in a fucking wheelchair AND yeah, no disability from Social Security.
WTF is wrong with this damn state?
that is just one issue for my intense anger.
the her who isn't my wife.
no ability to earn a living because of things out of my control.
where i live, so far out in the boonies, there are hardly any people and the ones who are here...well i am certainly an outcast.
it is easy to say "i hate life" when you are being beaten to shit.
but what if ALL you have is anger, what kind of life is that.
i have so much anger right now, and other issues, i am ready to check out of the hotel...that is what i call IT.
i gotta say this: FUCK IT and fuck life itself, i can't live like this, i am tired of trying to just survive...i am done.
i thought life was hard before, but this just tears me down more.
I’ve seen some people older than you come back from some very dark and low places.
Hope helps. Sounds corny but shit, Hope is all we have to hold onto sometimes.
Be well and keep posting. Add me as a friend.
one of the sources, i know is a combination of psychological and emotional, the idea of "why did you do this to me? how can you go on living your life, knowing what you did to me, the man you loved?"
and then a voice tells me, but it often does no good: "the woman who did this was not your wife..."
see my wife was not diagnosed schizophrenic or some other disorder, nobody around her could tell the difference between the original and the alter...the alter was my wife...it was the very angry and hateful original who did what she did to me. it is such a long story.
the voice has to remind me that my wife is lost inside her own head, and the head is controlled by the original and in turn, she lives in her own strange world...it's a dual-world, her's and the real one but her disorder can't tell the difference.
in truth, it is like this: "why did you die on me?"
...and following that, she might have "died" by being shoved back into wherever alters slip off too because the original came out.
way too difficult to explain.
that is my anger...and to most people, they don't understand the story, and fact is, i don't understand the reality...