Estate distribution between my sister and myself has completely destroyed whatever fond memories I have of my past family. In 1994 my father died (spent a good part of his money in a family business gone bust) and four years later my mother passed on. They left 90% of the estate to my sister. This has brought about a complete break in communication with her (she kept every dime she was given, later admitted she was an idiot to do so) and has also colored every single memory of my parents that I previously held dear. Now all I remember is their deceit and hate them for it, And my sister. My daughter is getting married in May and this will involve a meeting with my sister - do not know if I can handle it effectively or not. I cannot forgive nor forget. I have spent much reflective time on this issue but cannot see a way around it at all.

My anger is sometimes explosive and while taking the control steps sounds easy, I have other issues, many career and money related, that are severely damaging to my marriage and relationships. I have admitted that I can be an absolute s.o.b. sometimes. But I have so many past issues that I cannot easily overcome them.