Anger Management Support Group
Anger management commonly refers to therapeutic techniques by which someone with excessive or uncontrollable anger can control or reduce their emotions. Typical examples include the use of deep breathing and meditation as a means to relaxation. Psychologists recommend a balanced approach, which both controls the emotion and allows it to express itself in a healthy way.
I finally got out yesterday. Had to go to Walmart to take care of some stuff, but I also had to sit around in the heat with my niece's BF doing work for him, which I didn't get paid for.
Walking around Walmart was a chore. It wasn't like I was depressed at the moment, nor even angry.
It was seeing all those "happy" couples, holding hands and acting all mooshy with each other. I woke up with anxiety, like I nearly always do...but once in Walmart, within at least twenty minutes, with the bright lights, the noise, yapping babies and all that crap...feeling closed in and unable to get out (like I usually did/do)...and seeing all those happy idiots...my social anxiety kicked in and like a flash, memories of being with my *wife* flooded in and anger came about.
I was angry seeing all those people, all lovey with their spouses, or whatever...laughing and loving each other, existing in a reality I once lived in...totally oblivious to other people. The anger grew within me, seeing all this happy shit until I actually wanted to slap the shit out of these happy, oblivious people. Angry at them for having what they did with each other. Angry that I exist without any love or happiness, or a *wife*...angry that I felt like an outcast. Ignored. Yeah, when I felt like bitch-slapping a few people just because of what they had and I didn't...I made a mad dash for the door out of the store.
It took a whole hour for the anger to simmer down.
Thank god (or whoever)...I maintain myself as well as I do, even when this red anger seizes me. I am not worried that I will actually do anybody harm in reality...but just imagining myself doing something is bad enough.
I am going to see a doctor and a therapist next week. I have NEVER had an anger management issue. I don't consider this an anger management issue. I am, under normal situations, a really nice guy...but this shit, it didn't come to me until last month...at least I recognize it as a mental issue now and want to get help...
Walmart can be like that and you never know how many of those lovey couples didn’t just come from a dark place at home or which ones and went home and fought.
It’s like social media. Every one paints the roses side.
couples can be annoying anyway, but then there are SOME that are just EXTRA annoying, like they have to make a show of it. ppl that make grocery shopping a social event always annoy me anyway, but some couples do that also, and yeah it's annoying and gross. one time I was at safeway and there was this couple going around the store practically hugging the whole time. ugh get a room ppl. it's bad enough you have to be all annoying, but to take up space and inconvenience ppl, when you arent even shopping, is just gross. I hated that store anyway, that was just another reason to remind me not to go there.