this morning my mother started taking and she stated to me that she didn’t want to move to Goregia, and stay in Florida, I asked her what was her reasoning, and she stated the traffic and the weather, keep in mind she hasn’t driven in over 1 year and she never really leave the house unless I take her, she has went back and fourth for the last few months about where she wants to live, she told me that she would love me to come with her, or I can move on, what she doesn’t realize is I’m there because she can’t be by herself, in a day or two she’ll start talking about Georgia again, and it starts al over, she will be getting tested tomorrow hopefully I’ll get some answer, where to go from here, it’s taking a toll on me mentally and emotionally!!!!!
i recently just lost a beautiful woman in my life... she took me off the streets and was there for me... we fell in love but because of my addiction and total shock, that there are good women out there, I was confused and I lost her... my addiction made it look like I didn’t love her, because I wouldn’t quit... so she threw me back on the streets and 2 weeks later kills herself... I don’t...
The person I loved the most hurt me in the worst way possible. I can’t even bare the pain anymore, I don’t know what to do or where to turn. I’m always there for everyone else during hard times, but who’s there for me? Sometimes when I think about suicide I think about leaving a note. A note letting him know he’s the reason for everything, I just want him to hurt as bad as I am.