Boy do I hear you. I see strangers on the street (couples) and God forgive me I am so jealous and think why isn't that us, we were good kind people, every once in awhile I still ask WHY..though I know there is no answer. moving through the stages of this is really a tough one.I try, we all do to stay up beat but its really hard when you wake up every morning and realize "OH yes this is my life..Alzheimers! If I come up with a good antidote I will let you know , until then my friend we all hang in there and look to each other here for love!! :)

Actually, if you saw me in person, you would maybe be a bit startled as I am totally GREEN in color!!!!!!


I am wanting all things back that meant we get to have a 'normal life"


the green monster.........

Been there.... still there. Sometimes I feel bad that I feel so envious
of healthy couples.
We have talked about this before.. and I haven't improved much.
I just feel so robbed of our retirement and the plans we made.
I don't think there is any cure for this condition. At least I haven't
found one.
Even with Ron gone now.... I still feel the resentment and envy.
Not a pretty state is it ?

I want to join the envy club. I feel so frustrated. I want a "Road Trip", a "date night", anything. but this. It was our 45th anniversary this past Thursday. I thought maybe I should take him out and then I thought why embarrass him. It is better not to even remind him. So, on our anniversary he went and laid on our bed at 2:00p.m. and watched old movies and finally fell asleep at 7:00p.m. As I look back, it was actually quite a nice evening because I was able to cross-stitch for several hours.
As you can tell. I am trying to look for the positive. Some times it works, but most time it doesn't. Sure wish I could just drop by one of your homes for a "diet coke". That would make me feel better.

Have a good day and a better tomorrow.
Love to all of you,

Sharon

As I sit with Jim at the rehab center, I see soooo many people in worse shape than us (especially me), but I also see couples visiting loved ones and see the love on their faces and in their actions and it makes me cry.

We once had such a wonderful relationship. He loved me more than life and I knew that he would love me forever. He spoiled me rotten with love, things he did for me, gifts he gave me and to see it going down the drain day by day and hour by hour is a horrible thing to see.

He has almost stopped talking and that is the worst thing for me. I even liked his ornery talk but I sit there and try to get him to talk, but he looks at me as if to say, "I've said it all and now it's time to stop."

OK, time to pull up my big girl panties and put on my smiley face. Gotta go and be upbeat and wonderful and talk enough for both of us.

Take care and hang in there
Hugs

Me too, me too. I know I'm taking care of my mother and not a husband but I know several couples who are taking care of mothers together. I so wish I had that.

My ex and I remained close friends and I miss him all the time. He was my perfect match and I still miss him after 10 years. He even understood why I had to leave him for reasons that are another story.

All of my friends are happily married. I miss that and yes, I am a brilliantly shining green alien.

Oh Debbie am I every with you. My hubby went into a wheelchair in 1985 and I knew then that our lives would be so different. He never felt comfortable going anywhere because "handicapped accessible" never really meant he would be able to use the bathroom facilities......only that there was a parking space. After many instances where he couldn't get into the bathroom he more or less became a hermit. Things have been better the last 10 years or so as far as assessibility but now we have the dementia issue.

I had my best friend over for breakfast this morning and she lost her dad a few years ago and was a wonderful caregiver for him with Parkinsons/dementia. She tells me she and her hubby are going to Italy on their next anniversary. I am so happy for her but so jealous. I cried when she left knowing that we will never share any of those amazing things together. I so miss all of the things we had hoped to do when we were young. Guess you just never know what God's plan is for you. I really wish I understood......maybe it would make this journey just a tad easier.......the only good thing that I can think of is the friends who are complete strangers yet like sisters to me that have helpfed me to maintain my sanity..........love you all.....Jeanmarie