ALL MOODY BLUES Community Group
This group is for all people, no matter what disease, disorder, or life issue that causes you moody times and needs a little support or wants to give support. Be yourself, have fun meeting new people that care and understand you. RULES- show respect, no extra drama, no bashing, keep personal info confidential , and don't give advice [ if asked ok] . problems or...
I feel like just when I start getting me & my life going in a more positive direction, something always has to come along and put up a speed bump or detour sign. I’m so tired. Exhausted is more like it. My new positive journey currently has a dark cloud hanging around it, and I’m having a hard time pushing it away. I’ve been working very hard at accepting that my 27 year marriage is over, and that I’ve been having to live with the man (like roommates) ever since he laid the news on me a year ago. Constant effort to work on my anxiety and stress. My physical and mental health seem to be under constant fire, since my shoulder and brain surgeries 4 years ago. Finished up radiation treatments first week of January. Got 3 weeks off of doc appts after that. Then back to 2-3 a week. MRIs, followups, basics, therapist, new ones to see if maybe this one can figure out what no one else was able to. Then I had to get a phlebotomy for my iron levels, and my brain and body shit the bed, for at least 2 weeks now. And also I may have caught a virus, or maybe something else is going on, but I have been on off dizzy with lots of brain fog. Difficult thinking. Nauseousness set in a few days ago along with back of neck and head pain. Plus mild migraine crap. Nothing I try works. Go to the doc? Ya like what are they going to do? Tell me to go home and rest, drink fluids. Can’t treat viruses. And my reaction to the phlebotomy is my own special conundrum. I’m fighting depression and anxiety and now stress cuz this is lasting longer than I would like. And I’m so not eating or sleeping right. Who can with all this crap going on? I want to be DONE! I want my brain and body back. I want my husband to give a shit. I want to find a new place to live. I want to know my life is going to be ok. I want my positive attitude back. I’m so tired of having to be trying for everything all the time. Ok, yep pity party. I just have to try and not set up camp here. Look for those positive tools to keep me going. Like babbling all this out to someone. Even though I know this is a pretty dead group site, I’m doing it anyway. No one around me to say all this to that would really care.
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check out that smoke ring. It tasted really good. I smothered it with Maulls BBQ sauce which is Local to St. Louis and one of the best I ever had.....
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I was recently separated from my wife of 33 years and it's complicated. Anyway I rented a room about 15 minutes away and I see my kids about once a week. I see the people who own the house I live in once in a while but other than that I stay in my room where I do my cooking, wash dishes in the shower, read, color, and sleep. I get out at least once a day. I grocery shop and I attend 2 meetings...
Life is not easy for anyone. We all have days when we wish we could just check out of the hotel of life, but we move on, we keep fighting, because I know there is a part of me that wants me to keep up the fight and wants me to keep searching for that light at the end of the tunnel, because there is always a rainbow after the storm,....even if we can't see it.....there is always a rainbow after the storm!
God Bless