Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
I really don't know what to feel right now. I'm upset with myself for obvious reasons I think. I feel absolutely horrible for my behavior on here the past couple weeks. I know "I'm sorry" probably sounds empty. It's not empty for me. My heart hurts for those of you who I disrespected, offended, or upset. My heart hurts for me thinking that I might have lost friends. Believe it or not, I love a lot of people on here and I can't do this without you. I need you all. You have my deepest apologies. I hope you'll forgive me this one last time.
To all of you posting in the last couple weeks, thoughts that were meaningful to you, or in your cries for help, or attempts to help others... I am ashamed of my selfishness, and to all of you, I am deeply deeply sorry. You deserved better.
I am officially scared sober and I hope for good this time. I realized today that I cannot control my drinking and my life IS TRULY UNMANAGEABLE if I continue. The way I felt today walking into work drunk and not being able to function in my job and feeling like I was going to have a mental collapse... I almost lost myself this time. I almost lost it. I mean, my life flashed before my eyes and I saw what I have become. Much as I preach my own self-hate, I DON'T want to lose this battle. I want a better life. I don't ever want to hurt anyone again. I want to stop hurting me. I WILL go to any length to maintain my sobriety.
I officially surrender. ...sober day 1...
I pledge right now to make a positive contribution here to those in need. No more "flaunting" what I mistook for intellect.
To all of you posting in the last couple weeks, thoughts that were meaningful to you, or in your cries for help, or attempts to help others... I am ashamed of my selfishness, and to all of you, I am deeply deeply sorry. You deserved better.
I am officially scared sober and I hope for good this time. I realized today that I cannot control my drinking and my life IS TRULY UNMANAGEABLE if I continue. The way I felt today walking into work drunk and not being able to function in my job and feeling like I was going to have a mental collapse... I almost lost myself this time. I almost lost it. I mean, my life flashed before my eyes and I saw what I have become. Much as I preach my own self-hate, I DON'T want to lose this battle. I want a better life. I don't ever want to hurt anyone again. I want to stop hurting me. I WILL go to any length to maintain my sobriety.
I officially surrender. ...sober day 1...
I pledge right now to make a positive contribution here to those in need. No more "flaunting" what I mistook for intellect.
Pick someone that talks the steps and talks about a new life. Someone who is committed to the steps.
Dont pick the person with the best/most drinking stories. They may not have the most pals at the meetings. Pick someone who has what you want or someone that has a glimpse.
You need to get to work. Just meetings wont keep you sober.
Sounds like you're off to a good start Anna. Only one thing I can think of that you left off. Don't drink.
Intentions are just thoughts. You must turn those intentions into action. You have plenty to do, go do it. And don't drink.
I'm glad you saw what you have become, that one hit me pretty hard too....I think it first occurred to me while in the bathroom stall at work chugging vodka and wrapping the mini bottle in tissue paper to dispose of...sucky feelin but you know you can change it. You see how many of us have changed our lives for the better, you can do it too. This time...don't dilly dally and bullshit with excuses and get yourself a sponsor and start the steps. Suck it up and do it! :)
Keep goin girl! Love ya! Sorry I havent' been here..I'm hopin to be back this weekend cause I miss y'all crazy knuckleheads! :) hee hee...