Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
I really don't know what to feel right now. I'm upset with myself for obvious reasons I think. I feel absolutely horrible for my behavior on here the past couple weeks. I know "I'm sorry" probably sounds empty. It's not empty for me. My heart hurts for those of you who I disrespected, offended, or upset. My heart hurts for me thinking that I might have lost friends. Believe it or not, I love a lot of people on here and I can't do this without you. I need you all. You have my deepest apologies. I hope you'll forgive me this one last time.
To all of you posting in the last couple weeks, thoughts that were meaningful to you, or in your cries for help, or attempts to help others... I am ashamed of my selfishness, and to all of you, I am deeply deeply sorry. You deserved better.
I am officially scared sober and I hope for good this time. I realized today that I cannot control my drinking and my life IS TRULY UNMANAGEABLE if I continue. The way I felt today walking into work drunk and not being able to function in my job and feeling like I was going to have a mental collapse... I almost lost myself this time. I almost lost it. I mean, my life flashed before my eyes and I saw what I have become. Much as I preach my own self-hate, I DON'T want to lose this battle. I want a better life. I don't ever want to hurt anyone again. I want to stop hurting me. I WILL go to any length to maintain my sobriety.
I officially surrender. ...sober day 1...
I pledge right now to make a positive contribution here to those in need. No more "flaunting" what I mistook for intellect.
To all of you posting in the last couple weeks, thoughts that were meaningful to you, or in your cries for help, or attempts to help others... I am ashamed of my selfishness, and to all of you, I am deeply deeply sorry. You deserved better.
I am officially scared sober and I hope for good this time. I realized today that I cannot control my drinking and my life IS TRULY UNMANAGEABLE if I continue. The way I felt today walking into work drunk and not being able to function in my job and feeling like I was going to have a mental collapse... I almost lost myself this time. I almost lost it. I mean, my life flashed before my eyes and I saw what I have become. Much as I preach my own self-hate, I DON'T want to lose this battle. I want a better life. I don't ever want to hurt anyone again. I want to stop hurting me. I WILL go to any length to maintain my sobriety.
I officially surrender. ...sober day 1...
I pledge right now to make a positive contribution here to those in need. No more "flaunting" what I mistook for intellect.
The support is all around you-I am not going anywhere. Take it and work your butt off to get and stay sober, k? get going bam bam xo
The most positive contribution you can make here is to be able to share the solution that you find - you have not yet found it. Please ensure that your surrender is to some kind of recovery plan - I recovered in AA - if I can help you at all, just pm me.
Lyn
Shelly
I can only hope and pray that this time WILL be different.
Thank you for the support. And thank you, Serenity, very important point.
I know intentions are meaningless without action. I am hitting as many meetings as possible and pray I find the right sponsor to guide me. I am reading the big book.
What else can I do? Please tell me. I believe I am doing exactly what I have been told to do by others here. I am only falling short by not going to rehab which I just feel I can't do right now. I am looking into outpatient care.