when i first went i was really scared, but my husband actully took me by the hand and sat with me, we did this for a while, and little by little i started going on my on.there were times i wanted to talk, but was scared to sound stupid. then i realized i could not talk without crying, so i wouldent even attempt it.and again little by little i started talking, and sometimes i would even introduce myself and say that if i cry just ignore it, because i cant control it, and now its been 6 1/2 monts and time is flying by, and i am able to talk sometimes. but i do love going and always feel welcome. its so hard to believe that all of these strangers really do care and understand what you say. i thought i was the only one in the world with so many deep dark secrets, but i learned i was not, and that was a great relief. they have all been there also.

Well, this is not a disease of logic by any means; but why you shared about the positive experience and being reluctant to go back for not being sure you deserve it eludes me (that was a mouth full). Of course you deserve it, you deserve to be happy. I was in my 20s when I got sober, I found a sponsor close to my age and hung around her. I met her friends and in the meantime made some of my own. There are a lot of young people in AA, and most people know that those who enter the rooms are alcoholics, not their age.

My saying this to you does not promise that you won't be upset by some things people say, remember we are sick people. Listen to what people have to say, approach a woman (young or old, depending on your comfort level) who shares something that you identify with and seems to have something (emotional or spiritual) that you want.