it is a lifestyle change. it IS sooo worth it! hugs, nikki

Thanks nikki :) i'm going into rehab soon. i can't wait for a second chance. JAY

keep me updated. i wish you the best. it is hard but possible. i definitely know that. you have to be really ready

i think i'm as ready as i will ever be, iv hit rock bottom so the only way is up, yes ill let you know how i get on :)

Yes change is scary, but as the saying goes we have nothing to fear but fear itself. I've found that to be so true in sobriety.
So lean into change and hold on for a wonderful ride.

I can relate to that Jay, I had to change everything too but it is SO worth it. I am really free today, not just of alcohol but of unnecessary fear and the awful emotions that had me heading for another drink. I found being sober unbearable without help.

The good thing is that other alcoholics understand better than anyone else how all this feels - either on here, rehab or in meeting rooms.

Just as other alcoholics helped me, I promised I would be there for newer members who came after me. We all try to help each other as it's a lifetime of change, but taken just one day at a time.

Fear of change kept me down too long Jay, it always looks far worse than it is. Moving forward brings courage and confidence, it has to or none of us would manage to stay sober!

Yes Jay I can relate...lots of things changed I only had to be ready to let them...my thinking, my emotions, yes my external circumstances but maybe what went on on the inside was more fundamental. Letting go of a lot of things actually became a relief :)

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Thanks guys i know that I'm ready now since i was released from prison my life has been i complete mess. I started drinking again thinking i could do it successfully this time (which is crazy) well i didn't do it successfully and it's been a living hell but the way i see it is i needed to fuck up this time to make me realize, i believe in the saying (behind every positive change there has got to be some suffering) iv done alot of suffering now I'm ready for the change :) Jay

Your post makes me smile!! You have hit the nail squarely on the head! You know what you need to do and even if it scares the hell out of you, you are willing to do it!! So proud of you Jay! As my sons would say "you got this"!!!

Hey, good luck in rehab, and for your continued sobriety. I, too, was edging away from hell and death - that was sobriety for me for quite a while. All the best.

Hi lostnurse too, yeah i feel really good about this, i definitely hit rock bottom recently so i know the only way is up now :)

Thanks nelliefay, I'll give this rehab 100% I'm still young and healthy enough to turn this around so now is definitely the time. Good luck with you're sobriety too.Jay

James, I know it is so scary to change, the socializing and being true about feelings. Just realizing the need to change and identifying what is so fearful to us is a huge step. I'm saying "us" because I'm speaking for myself as well! We do know the alternative to staying the same.

The social aspect becomes easier and AA fellowship is a great vehicle for that.

I'm definitely going to try an AA meeting soon I'm just waiting for my body to settle down from stopping the drink, I'm waking up feeling more fresh every morning so i know ill feel comfortable and relaxed enough in myself soon to go to one. Iv heard alot of things about AA but i;m not going to knock it until iv tried one.Jay