You are welcome here any time. I too have an issue with drinking. I start an I can't stop. So for me I just try to make it thru today. I can't wrap my head around forever and frankly it scares me. So just try today. I personally found a solution in the rooms of aa. I joined this site in March of 2012 and finally went to my first meeting in June 9. I have made it three years without having to pick ip a drink. That's from drinking 12plus drinks EVERY day from 14 to 40. Cmon lets go!

You can too

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I'm taking it day by day too. Sometimes that all you can do.

That is right where I at in my recovery. I will not drink today! I don't even think about tomorrow. That's not entirely true...sometimes I think that I always have the choice to do it tomorrow. Just not today.

Thanks. I'm trying to think positive and make that phone call tomorrow to the doctor. So i can get some counseling help. This would be a massive step for me. I cant tell family or friends yet. Too much shame. I just need to make that phone call tomorrow

Suggest you read "Stop Drinking Now" by Allen Carr. Really worked for me. Also, stay active on this discussion site.

I know of Allen Carr. I read his book about stopping smoking many years ago and stopped successfully. I will look it up on Amazon. It can't hurt to read it. Thanks i forgot about Allen. He was a true inspiration to me in stopping smoking.

I think it is the same basic approach. Very common sense for me, and so far it is working well.

Yes you are probably right, but Alcohol has been with me a lot longer than smoking ever was. In the end i found it quite easy to stop smoking. The loneliness triggers the drinking mostly. I've stopped all social media things lately and withdrawn from most forms of communication. I found myself becoming obsessed with checking them constantly. I think i need to get better and feel like I am getting somewhere before i can speak to my friends and family about my illness :)

I was a moderate to heavy functioning drinker for 45 years. Got really out of control towards the end (almost 2 months ago). Just needed to convince myself that all alcohol ingestion was very harmful to me and the people I love. Also convinced myself that it has no real value for me other than a quick, cheap and effective temporary escape from stress. But the alcohol route to stress relief is just not worth the real cost in physical, mental and social harm.

Sorry about the "loneliness" trigger. That is a tough one. Maybe you just gotta break out and get more involved in life. I joined a bicycle riding club and guess what, several of the members are ex-drinkers!

I just couldn't imagine a life without booze, but it is happening and I am back to being a part of society. I am proud of myself for the first time in my WHOLE life Get sober be happy
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Welcome! No rush to tell people what's going on. Take things at your own pace :) I hope the counseling stuff goes well, please keep us posted.

Happy you found us!

Hi jad. It took courage for you to be here and declare your desire for freedom from the Al monster. I have been where you are recently, but instead of loneliness, I had battled alienating myself from and hiding from the husband I live with in order to feed my addiction. I have been sober for just over a week now, and my first step was to spill everything to my husband and apologize and ask him to be understanding while I go through this, while WE go through this. You may live alone but there is a WE for you too, be it family, a close friend, or a group like AA, or us!
Something you said scares me though. A few years ago I reconnected with my best friend from high school on Facebook. We exchanged just a couple posts and she told me to call her. I tried a few times with no luck, then a few times to find her voicemail was full. I tried to reach her a few more times on FB then gave up. She died about a year later. I found out from another mutual friend that she had been struggling with alcohol and it finally ruined her liver. She was 36. Her parents and friends said she had withdrawn from everyone. It scared the shit out of me but also broke my heart knowing that had we connected, we might have been able to help each other. Now I will never have a chance to hug her and tell her I know how she feels.
Sorry for the long post, but I guess I am asking you to reach out. There is someone who can help you and will not judge you. We will do for now and in times of desparation, but do seek out someone to be with you on this journey that I hope you will start today.

In reality, that person is responsible for themselves, not U.
For example if u decide to quit, that's on you and if u decide to keep drinking, that's on you too.
There really is life without booze. Along time ago, I couldn't picture a day without it. Now I can't picture life with it. It truly is poison no matter what u call it: beer, wine, cocktail. It is all the same: poison.

Thanks everyone for the messages. I've read them all and appreciate the support. Doctors appointment today. Then stop poisoning myself. I've started writing a journal of sorts. I'm finding writing all my thoughts and feelings down is helping.