You probably need to run for the hills there Ashley!!!

No running for the hills just yet! Not from me... I appreciate your courage and honesty sister! I might need to run for the hills with you after this comment...but so be it...(you'll have to come south, since you are in Lousiville...no hills, I'm in Irvine.. some hills and if we need to we can jet to my parents..in Harlan...mountains to the sky...we will never be found and can keep each other company..:) JUst my opinion...folks...my opinion...send the mob back home...this is America..(opps some are from other places..) But sister...Ashley, you and I are Kentucky gals...so...here it goes..my opinion...Recovery is a process for some... respect your process...you are acknowledging your issues and problems that you crave a "substance" to cope...or for whatever...recovery "for some" can be a step at a time. Get some help for these issues. I think you are doing great with working on being honest with yourself and us...keep up the good work my KY sister!:)

Thank you cateyes....It was hard for me to post that and I did not have to.....I am working on going in the right direction...I will do this....I will continue to learn and stop all substances .....

you rock cateyes....maybe i do need to hide on a moutain where there is nothing to tempt me(but not from DS, I dont care what others will say or think anymore)....lol....I am only ME, doing the best I can for now...
thanks so much for your support:)

In all reality Ashley, I have your back in that department. It just won't work for me.
I really feel strongly about bringing up anything on this site.
You might keep that topic right here though, have a great night.

heya doing Ash?

I was a very heavy hydro grower an shmoker-

I had too get sober with the ganja in installments of personal best's-

Like an athlete -

I stopped cold turkey which sounds dramatic I know-However I went 12 days then had a joint !!

I then went 23 days then had a joint!!

I then went 82 days and had several joints-

My sober date is jan 9th-Ive been clean and sober properly 82 days after 9th jan-

Hope that makes sense in time frames-

If it aint a big deal it aint a big deal-

However i found sobering up horrific!LOLs-
And a spliff when i was at my worst was better than -prescription shit-

You feel on that I think!

your doing good! I still think alcohol is the easiest to stop!!-The hardest to stay off though-and stay stopped-

But the cronic is harder to get off (For me)
Yet easier to abstain from for me -

Just be careful of how often and how much of that stuff you smoke. It can really do a number on your motivation. I've seen it too many times.

yeah it a theif of energy and inspiration too!!

I've been thinking of taking a toke to help me sleep. I don't like the stuff - smoked when I was a teen to "keep up". But I just happen to have some. For about 8 months now. Haven't touched it yet. Half the time I forget I even have it. But this not being able to sleep is really frustrating and I know that stuff knocks me out with wun widdle puff. Last night was not too miserable, though, so I'm going to ride it out.
But thanks for your honesty, Ashely. And I bet you a million you're not the only one.
Kate

You know when people like you are completely honest when nobody would ever know is a great thing. You show integrity when many people would say anything. I don't think I can advise you on this one. I've tried pot a few times but it just didn't do anything for me, maybe I didn't smoke it right Ha Ha.

love can be an addiction......take a deep breath.....and yes you are allowed to inhale.....just don't run for public office...........we all search for a comfort blanket. and yes everyone has one. some are less desirable then others all i can suggest is search the heart, find your love of life and act upon it. simply put....make you center and let life revolve around you :)

Yeah I been thinking about snorting some Oxycontin lately.

LOL krm.....there is no right.......but if done around a pool table.......LOL

Weed was the first thing I ever did and the last thing I ever did. I had to stop because I noticed, for myself, that it altered my state of reality and made it hard to maintain my personal contact with God. Not to mention at the time I was on probation and my P.O. frowned on hot drug tests. Something to do with it being illegal. ;)

YEP AND i FEEL NO CONNECTION TO ANYTHING WHEN I'M STONED-i DID EAT WELL THOUGH!!

my favorite was hash under glass or a drinking a joint....long story.....