i'm a phone dude....i could have helped you.................

i made my first mistake here by spewing part of my drinking menu.....never again.......nobodies business.............

one thing i noticed about you nemo.......is your eyes and the willingness to absorb the beauty you see. many believe you capture it on your own terms.................i know different.............it is forever there at your grasp that my friend makes you a camera whisperer.

you judge through you own eyes and experiences...............you have no idea how much i appreciate that.

lew

Lew,

Ah, but that was when I became strictly a matter between me & Curtis. If I had been able to drag anyone else into it at that moment, it would have interrupted the most important conversation I've ever had.

Bump

Bump-a-rooni!

I think mine was when I realized it was never gonna be a destination .Just life lived in a much more practical , less painful way :) Billy

Mornin' Duck.
The miracle to me is being able to keep peace of mind no matter what curve ball life throws at you,,,,,,,AND NOT USE.

In a nutshell; understanding the serenity prayer and living it.

Wow lots of them! An amends to my father who I hadn't spoken with in 10 years, and his reaction. It was a miracle for me.
Relief from the obsession to drink. Sure I think about it, but that nail biting god awful pull is gone today.
A quantum change in how I react to people, places and things. Not always, but enough for me to see progress -- I would have drank by now without that.
And many other miraculous moments of light, love and serenity.
I'm so thankful

Wow. This is an oldie.

The Miracle.... I guess I have a different perspective now. I have not completely lost the obsession to drink. I think that was the miracle I was looking for then.

In the past 9 mos I have experienced a number of miracles. The most incredible of them all is that I have not HAD to pick up a drink in those "almost" 9 mos. AND that I realize today I am not the ONE keeping myself sober exactly - hard to explain. I do what I am supposed to do and I don't have to drink, and I know that is a gift, not an accomplishment.

This has been a tough week for me. BUT it feels like growing pains instead of the world coming to an end. I cannot fathom drinking today any more than I can fathom taking my own life.

It's okay.

It was just yesterday while taking an afternoon nap, I had one of those dreams that I was in a bar.. I can remember having some temptation, and standing on the dance floor about 25 feet from the bar. The bartender started throwing full bottles of liquor at me and bottles smashing all around me on the floor. The last bottle he threw I caught in mid air, and threw it back at him smashing the mirror behind him.

I never did take a drink and never did have a dream like this in all my thirty years of struggling to sober up. I`m hoping that this is a sign that the subconscience mind is finally accepting the fact that IT dosen`t drink.

The alcoholic mind is a powerful thing to overcome.

It takes a Miracle!

One of the two biggest miracles for me was quite simply that approximately 5 weeks into sobriety, about half way through my Step 9 amends, I discovered the desire, fear, want, obsession with alcohol had suddenly left me. I knew then what Bill W. meant about being rocketed into the fourth dimension.

The second miracle is that at nearly 5 years into sobriety it has never come back, so far.

What a great thread looking back for many of us where we was then and where we are at today.

A true miracle for me was finding out I didn't have to live like I did for so many years and there was solution to my hopelessness. A gift for sure from a power greater then myself.

It's funny - I was just sitting here wondering why the term 'spiritual awakening' irks me so...

For me, I realized something had changed in me when I was about 6 months sober. My mother, who is notorious for repeating things she's been told not to repeat, revealed that my brother was 'one of' the people she had told about me going to AA. My reaction? I calmly reiterated to her that that was my news to share, not hers...and waited to go home and do what I'd normally do - dwell on it, and get really mad about how I'd been wronged.

What actually happened was I got home and thought "well, maybe he needed to hear that" and let it go - poof - not renting space in my head anymore.

A week later I got a call from my brother telling me that he'd been 'in and out' of AA for years - and that I was the first person outside of the rooms that he'd ever told about that. I think he did need to hear it -and I needed to hear what he said too - kind of cool how it worked that way.

It was just such a major shift in how I'd have normally handled such a situation - and it happened totally naturally - not at all forcing myself to react properly...felt to me like a realization that I had changed for the better. Maybe a spiritual awakening? I don't know, but it was good : )

For me the miracle was making it through a couple days without drinking. Realizing that I actually COULD quit was amazing.

The switch from being an active alcoholic to an alcoholic drinker who was refusing to drink to a non drinker was more gradual.

A hundred billion bottles washed up on the shore.

A hundred billion castaways looking for a home.

What are the odds that God would read my note?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jz7ZO9r9sVE

Taradactyl - I think you are experiencing "the miracle" since you are loving the way you are feeling.

For me it was the feeling of distress lifting off of my shoulders, as if by magic. I felt free - and to me that is a miracle.