Alcoholism Support Group

Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.

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Taradactyl
Taradactyl
I am struggling big time.

I am fully aware OF this stubborn resistance in me but I cannot seem to let it go. I am sure it is fear based. Why the fuck does it feel like I am up against a brick wall. I won't DO anything about it! Wtf can I not get myself to DO what I know will help?!

I am so fucking depressed right now. I don't even want to drink. I wish I did. I wish I had that option.

It does pass but keeps coming back. Therapy and talking about shit and step 4 all seem to make me feel worse. It is so hard to ask for help when nothing seems to help and I am fighting getting better.

I am praying but even that is hard lately.

I don't even know anymore. I just want to give up.
nickyj18022002
nickyj18022002
Nemo - "it was the end of a perfect day, not a cloud on the horizon"
travisbickle
travisbickle
Forgive me and my lousy 2 cents here, but as a totally neutral observer in your obvious plight with depression and/or exacerbation, it would appear on the surface that you are getting pulled in to all sorts of corners, fragmenting and scattering your forces.
In the end for me, there were only 2 choices of surrender. I think it had to be a total surrender thing like that Big Book said, and I believe that the choice I made when I finally confronted the matter, pretty much sent me on the right path (for me anyway), and although it hasn't always been pretty, it sure has been a lot better than being a vicious, liquor lathered spirit.
Over and out. I wish for you peace and that period of clarity you will most certainly experience with continued sobriety.
All the best.