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Question.
I have heard people talk about getting a little squirrelly when they are coming up on milestones.
Has this been true for you?
In my earlier attempts at sobriety, I would come up on 30, 60, 90 days and it bothered me to get recognized because I didn't like to say where I was or how I was doing. I felt like taking a token was sort of another commitment to my own success that I wasn't ready to make. I KNOW why those early milestones were hard. I have not experienced that difficulty with milestones this time around.
Today is different. I am less than a week from my year and I am struggling for no real apparent reason. When I say struggling, I mean with idea of drinking, craving etc. I have gotten through these feelings before and I have no plans to drink, but it is sort of debilitating. It isn't constant, but in certain moments, I can hardly work through the anxiety. I feel like I am going nuts very similar to when I was trying to stay sober without a program.
So.... anyone else experience this?
I have heard people talk about getting a little squirrelly when they are coming up on milestones.
Has this been true for you?
In my earlier attempts at sobriety, I would come up on 30, 60, 90 days and it bothered me to get recognized because I didn't like to say where I was or how I was doing. I felt like taking a token was sort of another commitment to my own success that I wasn't ready to make. I KNOW why those early milestones were hard. I have not experienced that difficulty with milestones this time around.
Today is different. I am less than a week from my year and I am struggling for no real apparent reason. When I say struggling, I mean with idea of drinking, craving etc. I have gotten through these feelings before and I have no plans to drink, but it is sort of debilitating. It isn't constant, but in certain moments, I can hardly work through the anxiety. I feel like I am going nuts very similar to when I was trying to stay sober without a program.
So.... anyone else experience this?
I think primarily what is going on when I feel like this is that I get scared that I can't keep it up, which is really strange because most of the last yea has been effortless. The last few months especially have been great - maybe too good to believe I get to keep it as long as I keep doing what I am supposed to do and keep my faith.
The physical anxiety is maybe just something I am gonna have to calm as best I can. Too often, I get stressed about my anxiety and, as you can probably imagine, that only fuels the fire.
xo
I got a little nervous at 9 months and it took me 2 weeks to pick up that chip:)
Anyway, my advice to myself when I get nervous is to focus outside myself. I pray, I read, I run, I walk, I do yoga. I meditate on the feeling. It passes and I've felt mostly great.
Just keep doing the next right thing and .....you will be fine.
I so get this and I used to think that way too. When I have HP and keep spiritually well, the promises do come true (as does the last paragraph on page 84 about 'recoil from it as a hot flame').
As was pointed out to me, faith replaces fear.
Stay close to your HP :)