The other night I went to my meeting. My sponsor was there. He pulled me aside and asked if I had been drinking. I said no, Why? Then he told me another member of A.A. had come up to him and Said that I had been drinking, and that he had smelled it of me. He didn't tell me who said it. I acted calm, but it really pissed me off. Just the fact that somebody, that didn't know what they were talking about, had not come to me, and had said something that wasn't true, really bothered me. My sponsor called me the next day and appologized for not saying something for me. He told me who had told him. Now I was really mad. This guy is a jerk to me. He has an ego about ten feet tall. He always seems to be chairing the meetings, struting around like he has it. Even picked up a girlfrend at one of the meetings lately. I want to wait until I see him at the meeting, and then I plan to bring up the topic of rumors. I want him to see threw the comments of others how much of a stupid thing that he did. I'm not sure if this is right or wrong, but I feel it would get rid of the knot I feel in the pit of my stomach. I prayed to forgive him, but people that start rumors really bother me. They havn't got the guts to confront people. Rumors in recovery are very dangerous and we need to NOT start them, or entertain other people that start them. Rumors have the capacity to kill people. I know I'll get threw it, but not everybody can. Sometimes just getting one day can be so hard, and even if that person falls we should still be there for them, and to help them. Rumors don't help people. The same as gossip. I used to do both before I learned better. When I drank, I loved to tear down people. Made me feel good because my life was so miserable. It's really just another form of abuse, and we need to avoid it at any cost. After all, we learn in A.A. to, "let the hand of A.A. always to be there, and for that I am responsible." James
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