Good luck.

I remember going to the Doctor and getting hooked up to the EKG and just feeling soooo bad. I had many bad symptoms , over weight ( drinking 2000 extra calories a day didnt help), out of shape ( sitting at the bar or in my lounge chair didnt help ) , high cholestorol ( man those fried cheese sticks were the only good thing at the bar) , and I was also having depression and anxiety, BUT... I had my booze... What a load of crap. I remember the doctor telling me that my 38 year old body was digesting itself from high liver enzymes. I was three times the normal limit. ALT 155 and normal was 0-55... So what was my solution when I left the Dr office. The BAR!!! It was all i knew to do... Then about 3 months later after a regular Saturday night of drinking and falling asleep and just feeling so helpless with this problem... I googled ' alcohol and help' ... It lead me to this site. I actually started out reading the 'wives of alcoholics' page... Man I was that crappy guy that was giving my wife a crapton of problems. Well after drinking for another while and one more crappy saturday night, i woke up on Sunday and just got in my car and drove around all day.. I couldnt live with booze and I sure couldnt live without it. I was picking out the bridge abutment that I could hit on the highway ( Sounded actually like a good idea ) and that was when I pulled over and got my phone out and googled aa. I went that night. I havent had to drink since. Finally there was an answer to what the hel was wrong. I was an alcoholic. Life has gotten so much better. I wake up and dont have the shame, guilt, and remorse i was living with for years. It takes some effort to stay sober but its worth it. Good luck and I hope the journey is a great one for you. You deserve to be happy. Cmon!
1is2many

Continue seeing the doctors, if the anxiety attacks continue. I went cold turnkey. It's tough for the first 2 weeks. Just hang in there.

Thanks for the responses so far. 3Rd day without a drink. My routine is I only drink at night to help fall asleep (50 oz of beer a night). During the day, I forbid myself from drinking and for 4 years, I've never had a drink during the day. I usually drink bud light. It's only the 3rd day and I am a bit shaky but doing ok.

Quitting is easy, staying quit takes some effort. The booze worked so well to remove me from myself. I personally found that I would quit, get to feeling better, think, well THIS time will be different and hop back on the merry go round for more fun. This time I found a replacement for the drinking. I found some type of solution to all the reasons Why I drank. I work on those feelings of less than and not good enough. I hope you can have a great sober life. Let us know how it goes.
1is2many

Quitting cold turkey is good if you can stick to it otherwise it's best to seek some help for it, I have been on again off drinking for the past 20 yrs, I have 2 dwi and have totaled 3 cars in the process, the though of losing my family is what prompted me to seek help as I'm off to rehab in 2 days and gonna work on why I drink to find the problem

Ah, good thing to point out. Looking for the reason we drink in particular does help. I'm in the process of looking at why I drink

Hello timoA,

An alcoholic will come up with a million reasons for drinking and every one of them will be genuine.

It was a great revelation to me when I found out that I drank for only one reason. I had developed an obsession for alcohol and a craving for more once I took the first drink.

Very simple but I had no idea.