I am having an extremely hard time following the steps when it comes to my spouse. I can be having a good day, yet as soon as he is around i fall back into the insanity. I am at the point where i don't know if i should even be with him, because i should only be focusing on myself and my sobriety, right? Instead i get miserable, feeling so angry towards him daily for so many reasons. Mainly because he doesn't help me out with the household chores or the children, but lately i am fed up with the fact that he always has a thousand reasons as to why i can't go to a meeting. And i desperately need them. It's always about him, what he needs to do. I feel like i am coming apart at the edges, and the only time i feel ok is when i go to a meeting. If i could i would go every day, even more than once a day. But i do have 4 children, so should i just suck it up and stay at home with them like he wants? How far should i go in order to get what i need to stay sober???
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