More than anything I think what Rick said is how I feel...just NOT an option. Thankfully I haven't the desire every day and if the odd moment does arrive I think it through. Coming here daily and meeting f2f strengthens my understanding and gives me ideas (tools).

Self will. I'm in trouble aren't I?

And distractions.

Meetings, phone calls, and chats help. Seeing other people get sober helps.

It ain't my HP keeping me sober yet. It isn't the steps.

I honestly feel like the beast is breathing down my neck. I just keep walking fast hoping I get some relief before the fuckits hit. I am trying to just do the next right thing, and no matter what, DON'T DRINK.

25 days down.

I try to stay around or in phone contact with as many aa's as possible. I am just shy of 6 months, but I have 4 committments, and 2 are for sect. for the speaker meetings so i have to get out there and asked people to speak so that forces me to interact. Also this thing about helping others really helps. I still have the psychological craving, but I am hoping that what others say is true: That your fifth step eases that or takes it away".
I also try to stay off the pit pot, but that has been hard with losing my life partner.
I also try to get into service. That is one of the reasons i picked up this second committment. the group came to me and asked me and I told them I did not have the six months and said that they felt for some reason I needed this committment and they felt they needed me to do it. It was eerie, cause usually oldtimers take the postition at that meeting.
Also, getting outside with my dog really centers me. My god is out there. He is the snowy egrets along the bay, he is the leaves that fall from the trees, he is the adoration in the look I get from Molly when we finally ready to get out of the car.
He is also the one who does not let me forget that I am just a day away from being a drunk.

For me, I remain grateful.

I ask my HP for guidance, I do the next right thing, I make amends as necessary, I treat others as I like to be treated (if not, then more amends haha), I help other recovering alcoholics, I share my ESH and I try to be hospitable to all who enter my life.

If I get resentments, I also work on those so they do not manifest and grow.

At night, I always say my gratitudes and the first one is always thank you for a sober day.

Good post gjm :)

I have some pretty good orderly direction.

1. I ask God to keep me sober today/I will thank Him for doing so when I go to bed.
2. I am working the steps with my sponsor
3. I go to meetings.
4. I read the BB or some recovery literature
5. Jug been plugged all day.

Darrell, Sounds like a plan to me.

Have a good week-end.