I find this site very helpful for me. I get to be with others that have the same problems, and that helps me not to feel alone. I also find that journaling, and expressing what's going on, and my feelings just helps me to understand more clearly what's going on inside of me. I also go to meetings everyday, so my day is pretty centered around recovery, and I feel I need that. i do feel so much better, and staying sober hasn't been a real problem yet for me. Have a great day. James

Hello GSPBJJ,

Writing down your thoughts can certainly be helpful. The memory of how bad it really was begins to fade after a while and the thought often comes that a couple of drinks would do no harm - that is part of the insanity of alcoholism.

However, I have personally found that I had to do more than just write about it. I had to find a way of changing my thinking so that alcohol was no longer in the equation.

I came here with alot of years of sobriety and I have written things here that I would never have thought about because I see so many newcomers here that I never see at my AA meetings...I am not out there pressing the flesh of those I do not know at AA meetings...but here I post when I see someone's topic has just a couple replies and has fallen down the list some to others with 30 or 40 responses...those posts draw me and I find it is someone who is learning and yes I enjoy that I read those posts....and usually have something of some kind of support to say when I have finished the 3 or 4 other replies being read too....

so to you I say whatever will help you to keep the plug in the jug is the best thing going....it is my goal to keep the plug in the jug and if I can do that I will be successful where I have never succeeded previously....staying sober is a commitment to my own values...I do not want to ever drive drunk again...I never got consequences like some have for that behavior unless you consider the internal turmoil that it created for me knowing how drunk I was when I made my way home from the drinking by driving drunk....

hugs

Desperation got me to the rooms. The meetings gave me hope. I started working on the steps with a sponsor. Before long, drinking was but a distant memory. I never had euphoric recall as far as alcohol was concerned.

God had other plans for me besides dying drunk. I have a life worth living today.

While I'm typing this reply to you GSP, I feel like I might have met you on this board before. Maybe not. Anyway, sobriety ain't easy but it's do-able. Best wishes, Dianna

"God had other plans for me besides dying drunk. I have a life worth living today."
Gorgeous. So true.