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I have no idea what my passion in this life is....I mean my life seems so bland....I am single, live alone, work a full time job (sometimes feels part time), and do nothing since I have stopped drinking....well even before all I did was drink and mostly sat alone at home....
I just want to enjoy life again and dont know how...I want to be passionate about something, anything.....I am so bored with myself and my life....
I dont know what to do with myself...If I had more money I could think of lots of stuff....I love to travel....but honestly, thought about that last night and I have suck bad anxiety anymore (even when I dont drink), I do not know if I could enjoy that...
I am sorry to sound so winie....I know I have a lot to be grateful for, I just want to feel like I am living again, and I dont, I feel like I am merely existing....
So, what are your all passions, what is it that makes you want to be everything that you can be?
what is that makes you the happiest?
what is it that makes you feel like you are alive?
I just want to enjoy life again and dont know how...I want to be passionate about something, anything.....I am so bored with myself and my life....
I dont know what to do with myself...If I had more money I could think of lots of stuff....I love to travel....but honestly, thought about that last night and I have suck bad anxiety anymore (even when I dont drink), I do not know if I could enjoy that...
I am sorry to sound so winie....I know I have a lot to be grateful for, I just want to feel like I am living again, and I dont, I feel like I am merely existing....
So, what are your all passions, what is it that makes you want to be everything that you can be?
what is that makes you the happiest?
what is it that makes you feel like you are alive?
I started a thread on that my first day here:
http://dailystrength.org/c/Alcoholism/forum/3935283-art-recovery
Obviously, I love animals so I'm going to see if I can volunteer at a shelter again. I spend a lot of time here on DS and online in general. I have a lot of pent up energy expended doing laundry (whoo hoo). Movies and lots of hobbies I'd like to try (pottery classes, etc) are getting expensive. I don't know how to fill those happy hour hours!
Writing. Working out. Movies at home. My foster dad brought over about 30-40 boxes of tile so I've been looking into how to make a mosaic table! Hey, it's something! I can tile a floor or a shower stall decoratively, why not little broken pieces on a surface? Maybe I'll be famous!
i need to know that my kids will do well - that they are thriving.
and i need to feel creative, to be creative, to be actively creative. i have spent so much of my life either shut down or openly destructive - this year i declare that it is enough - no more.
I recently went out and bought some paint and stuff....have been trying to do that....but...lol...I am not so good....it stresses me out sometimes to not be good...I am trying to get over that and just have fun with it...so, I have been walking away to minute I get stressed...
maybe I'll be famous.....LOL...oh, you could only see the messes Ive made...I am laughing at myself as I type this....
Im just keeping that for fun...I dont want to waste all the money I spent, though it wasnt that much
thanks for all of your feedback...I guess I will just keep going and praying, and one day I know I will find meaning to all the maddness.....till then I plan to keep trying to laugh at myself
Is there something that you used to do when you were younger that you enjoyed? I used to want to be a martial artist, so when I sobered up, I walked into a Dojang and signed up for TaeKwonDo. I was no good then either, quite unfit, and 40 yo. 5 years later, I was a 1st Dan black belt and now teach junior belts myself. Do the leg work on this one Ashley. Find something you enjoy/ed. Another friend always wanted to be a gymnast, so she signed up for adult gymnastic classes at 36. They are more a Rec class that learn gymnastic moves and they have a blast. Age is no barrier.
Cm xxx