I go to f2f meetings but also attend online meetings at the site botbotcoco was sharing with you about. I love the folks there..they are very recovery focused. I've been to "recovery chat" and that's ok for fun but I like the meeting rooms because they are more focused.
I hope you'll give primary purpose chat a try!

im sure u can do it. im here if u need someone to talk to. ive never tried online aa but im starting to and willing to help you however i can

Thanks. Believe it or not I have been sober now for 4 years come this Feb. Man o man what an experience this has been. As of today, I have still never gone to an AA meeting but I do see my dr on a regular basis and I have a very supportive family and friends. The unfortunate thing about all of this is that it's true, as supportive as they are, none of them know what it's like. Even still. Hell, I am very thankful for their support but at times when I am craving alcohol so desperately, they don't understand it. Worst part is I have begun questioning my alcoholism. It's been almost 4 years and I have been fine. I still wonder if I had just one drink, would it really send me back to where i was 4 years ago???? That is the honest truth. does anyone wonder that?

From my exp. listening to others that disconnected themselves from being with people in recovery and or doing it on there own we tend to forget how bad it was and thinking one won't hurt. Well the truth is that one drink will put ya right back to where you was at only worse, just like you was with the last drink/drunk.

Its what we call a progressive disease.

A counsellor at treatment put it to me like this:

Dianna, You've already had your ass kicked over and over again. Do you really want to get back in the ring with Mike Tyson?

Today, thanks to AA, I can't honestly say I've ever wondered if I might be able to drink normally. By the time I sobered up, I had lost all euphoric recall of alcohol. All that was left was the misery left in it's wake.

I have an idea. Why don't you ask your husband and kids what they think of you having "1" drink?

Big congrats on 4 years BTW!!

Yes, I wondered that after 19+ years sober. Guess what... I was still an alcoholic and it got worse than it ever was. Forget about thinking you can have that one drink. God only knows where that first drink will take you. After 4 years, better to not pick it up at all.

Also besides London Primary purpose or whatever you call it, I went there a lot as a newcomer
There is also www.intherooms.com that have tons of online meetings

Dragonfly the joy of membership in AA is it is free. Free of judgement, string and free to attend. You are not required to participate in the meetings just show up and listen. The part that is not free is dealing with ourselves and our understanding why we drank. I applaud you for not drinking for 4 years and would ask if anyone has given you the Big Book to read? in my recovery I became to understand that the drink or drug was my way of not dealing with the root cause. in sharing my story with others and hearing their stories I realized I was not alone and would never have to be alone. The friendship I have built will now last me a lifetime and I can lean on them in times of needs. I have been through time in my sobriety of "dry drunks", it's an old timers term for staying sober without participation in my recovery. I don not know you or your situation but I foundry the fellowship a key to my continued sobriety and daily recovery. I find meetings a place of comfort and the fellowship before and after is when I make friends. It is always amazing to me to enter a room of strangers and to know they are future friends, if I put out my hand and say hi I need your help and strength. In 28 years of one day at a time I have never been turned away.

In recovery anything is possible

How do you get a sponser and go through the steps online? How do you.

To me, online meetings are way too time consuming. Have to have f2f, there is no other way!

i would not be able to overcome my issues without AA. i've only been sober for almost 2 months but i see so many positive changes already. i went into the program thinking that AA is just to quit drinking. but it's not just about the drink itself. it's about the issues that brought you to drink. it's about having a network of people who get you. learning to understand others and to understand yourself.

i've learned so much about myself in a very short amount of time. staying away from drinking has actually been easy for me. i have not gotten a strong urge yet. i dont care to drink. i feel that my bigger issues are with my alcoholic personality. and i feel that by working the steps, going to meetings, and working with my sponsor, it will vastly improve things and help me change the things i want to change.

nope I know for fact that this is progressive disease...it gets worse....but as for online AA...I have done some of both AA and NA...on www.intherooms.com they now have taken to using video conferencing some meetings....there are others and when I have time I will drop you a note person to person...I am running out of time and battery right this moment...gotta go to my face to face homegroup tonight....7pm and it is 5:40pm now...I wanna do it all before I go so I come home a crash! haha

http://www.stayingcyber.org/

There appears to be a number of meetings at the above link. I'm not sure whether or not it is sponsored by AA - but it looks quite organized and seems to follow the manner in which meetings, etc., are handled.

Good luck.

Well actually it doesn't look like that AA meeting site is very organized - or I am a techno idiot - not sure which. But if you go there - good luck.